I've got nothing to do now.. I've got nothing to do now.. I've got nothing to do now..
Okay, so I blog! Have been downloading photoshop for the past one hour or so and it's only 70% done.. I had dozed off on my bed for awhile just now and it's still downloading. But anyway, my laptop is back and it's working with a new C drive and a new keyboard, luckily Xiaoxing is still alive and kicking after the major operation. Yeah! =)
I forgot to blog about the Night Safari trip after the mangrove event. It's not a Reeaaaaaalll fantastic attraction but I really enjoyed it.. hee hee, so fun... at least it's something new for me. =P It's been there for years but just didn't have the chance to go. But anyway, I think my idea of fun is getting simpler nowadays, even the genting trips had been fun for me. Wahhahaa, maybe I'm that bored. It was quite crowded on Sat night and so we explored a few places on foot, then took a ride round the other half of the Night Safari on the tram. The best part was that the rangers wasn't looking when we reached the main station so we sneaked to the back and got up the tram for another free ride..heeheee.. yep, really clever of us. =)
Had been thinking of doing so many things lately, maybe I should call this daydreaming instead. Had made plans with Aileen to save up $3k/$4k in the next few mths and then we go for backpacking at the end of the year, maybe going to Europe or some other places. Sounds really exciting, there's so many places that I want to go. I think it's an achievable dream but just realised that I'm going nowhere this Dec except for Ramunia. Sigh.. Then, I also thought of visiting Wendy at Bintan for a short, relaxed holiday as she was really excited when Nicole and Alan went to visit her. Received a mail from her telling us about their trip a few days ago, its been a long time since she emailed us, and now she have a new found boyfriend over there. =) Next, I've also thought of getting a small classy tattoo, that will be real cool.. and I had even imagined what the design should be like. Maybe I will have the tattoo somewhere on my lower back just for fun, so I'm the only one who can admire it. Something like Faye Wong and Nicolas Tse..=P Hahaha.. Cool.. And I also want to learn riding once I've gotten my driving license. I know that if I do all the above four things, Mum will probably slaughter me alive. But it's still possible I'll do it, and maybe let her know about one or two of my plans.. especially the trips. It will be quite obvious if I'm away from my house for a few weeks. But anyway... just plans and plans, I still need the $$$! Oh yah, Jay's newest album is already waiting for me on the shelves. Oh well, guess it'll be next week before I can get a copy of it.
Thursday, July 31, 2003
Tuesday, July 29, 2003
Went mangrove expedition with the madcaps yesterday. Initally wasn't too keen about it but couldn't resist the enthusiastic invitiation from people like Lance and Wilson. Only decided to go around 1am in the morning, packed and went to sleep immediately.
Met Wilson, Zhihao and Darren in the morn to take a cab from AMK at 8.30am and we planned to go for breakfast when we reached Changi. So I didn't eat anything before leaving the house, it was a terrible mistake. Darren was disgustingly late. And by the time we reached the club, we had to prepare ourselves for launching so that we wont miss the high tide in the mangroves. Zhihao was the only clever one who had his breakfast, but he was really pissed with Darren for being late for half an hour. He's a super time conscious person and I'm already quite scared of him when I'm late for ten minutes from past experiences, so he was literally fuming when Darren finally appeared. I was so thankful that I was on time.
The next 'clever' thing that I did was to unsuspectingly follow everyone else and draw a dancer. I'm sure that I wasn't the only one who thought otherwise but Zhihao told me that it will make the whole thing more challenging. I didn't realise that what he said was more than an understatement. At the end of the whole thing, everyone told me that it was their first expedition to ubin in dancer too. But worse for me, as I didn't go through 2 star or 3 star courses, so didn't use dancer to go anywhere before. It was like a long lost friend for me, and yest was only the fourth time I sit inside the dancer for the past two years or so. Just after the first ten minutes, we crossed channel to go over ubin and I was already starting to get seasick..on an empty stomach. Horrible feeling at that point of time, but once the initial 'adventure' was over, everything just got better for me. Well, I still had my luck in one thing. Everyone else was going at a leisurely pace, then I just need to pia all the way just to keep up. My poor arms... they're very unfortunate as I didn't dare to give them any rest till it was break time. Suddenly, SIE seemed like a piece of cake, and I think I was really using double the effort I've used for SIE.
I was really happier when we reached the mangrove, as the condition of the water was much better there, and the tide would just bring us along. Finally I had the time to catch my breath, paddle at a more leisurely place and enjoy the scenery! The mangrove opening was at the end of noordin and it cuts through ubin to the jetty side. We went holland once as all the branches looked very similar and sometimes Lance (who was leading the exp) couldn't decide where to go. But the rest of the journey was successful. The only good thing about the dumb dancer was that we could drag the kayak across the landing and then go down the mud like a slide. Luckily ah teck wasn't around to see how we handled it. =P There was a bridge at the West side of ubin which we had to cross underneath, that was the really fun part. Staff Erik had to take off his buoyancy vest to prevent himself from getting stucked inside as the tide was still high and the opening was very minimum. Everyone was already complaining about their hunger when we reached that part, especially Darren. I was really cursing him over and over as my stomach was growling the whole time although I didn't have the energy left to complain. I was secretly very happy when a vicious fly chased after him in the swamp and bit him many times. Hee hee.. I think he was really my worst enemy at the club now, suddenly Tan LiangPing just seemed so much sweeter, harmless and nicer than him.
We took some time to practice our skills when we got back to club as the journey back was less than an hour. The club 'boys' were all doing their hand rolls, hee hee.. they really CMI!! So I discreetly go to one corner at the back of the sea to practice the humble eskimo. =P Really felt very achieved at the end of the day, much happier as compared to the demoralising practice on Sunday...
Saturday, July 26, 2003
Yeah..blog.. My 'ENTER' key is working tonight, so I'm finally back to update my blog about the past days' activities, otherwise my blog will go on and on with no paragraphing. =P
Guess what? I specially took a trip to NUS to repair my Xiaoxing yesterday, because of the unworkable keys, but mysteriously everything was working perfectly when I reached the NEC comp center. The woman was really looking at me with the questioning kind of face like I was trying to be funny. Finally, she got nothing much that she could help with so she just opened up the keyboard to dust it. Yah, that's not the end of the story, I came home last night and all the keys are not working again!! Even someone with the patience like me really felt like tearing my hair out and I keep hitting the keyboard with frustration. And now it's working again.. I think it really depends on Xiaoxing's mood nowadays.. Sigh..
Yep, tonight I'm in a really happy mood as no marathon tuitions for me tomorrow! Initally, thought that will be having KOP so canceled all tuitioning for tmr, and now I don't feel like resuming my lessons, I'm going to visit Night Safari instead! Yeah! Really happy..=) I can go and scare away all the nocturnal lions and tigers.. this weekend is really going to be much better than the last. Looking forward.. Just now went to take the new NE line and realised that it's quite fantastic, we can see the tunnel from the front window!! Hmm..a bit swa ku, but it's really interesting..
That night we had our hen party; intended to go Centro to take a look, BUT my good friends Aileen and Yingzhi couldn't go in with their slippers, and we walked all the way to Mohd Sultan to pub hop instead. Took the weekday NR home and it's really cosy, initially we were worried that there wasn't any NR but actually they've downsized the buses, that's why we didn't notice their existence. Had a good chat with Danping on the way back, but I wasn't familiar with the route (thought that it'll head straight to woodlands) and alighted at the bus-stop further away from home. According to Danping, it did turn into Sembawang after that, and I really regretted as I was all jittery during the walk home. I had many experiences of walking that path as late as midnight before, but I always tried to do it as fast as I could, it always gave me the feeling that someone could just follow and mug me from behind or something. The idea of walking through the quiet and dark park is really unsafe at 3am in the morning. I only took around 10 minutes to reach my block, and I think I would have make myself run all the way home if I wore track shoes.
To add on to Miss Giam mis-used words:
-Once bitten, twice 'shine'
-'Close your toes' (instead of cross your fingers) It's hilarious, but after reading her email with lots of broken English, I'm beginning to feel that I'm really good at interpreting her messages no matter how broken her email is. Used to it, used to it..
Alright, last piece of update, I had started on my project 'Y', and hope it'll be completed on time! =)
Guess what? I specially took a trip to NUS to repair my Xiaoxing yesterday, because of the unworkable keys, but mysteriously everything was working perfectly when I reached the NEC comp center. The woman was really looking at me with the questioning kind of face like I was trying to be funny. Finally, she got nothing much that she could help with so she just opened up the keyboard to dust it. Yah, that's not the end of the story, I came home last night and all the keys are not working again!! Even someone with the patience like me really felt like tearing my hair out and I keep hitting the keyboard with frustration. And now it's working again.. I think it really depends on Xiaoxing's mood nowadays.. Sigh..
Yep, tonight I'm in a really happy mood as no marathon tuitions for me tomorrow! Initally, thought that will be having KOP so canceled all tuitioning for tmr, and now I don't feel like resuming my lessons, I'm going to visit Night Safari instead! Yeah! Really happy..=) I can go and scare away all the nocturnal lions and tigers.. this weekend is really going to be much better than the last. Looking forward.. Just now went to take the new NE line and realised that it's quite fantastic, we can see the tunnel from the front window!! Hmm..a bit swa ku, but it's really interesting..
That night we had our hen party; intended to go Centro to take a look, BUT my good friends Aileen and Yingzhi couldn't go in with their slippers, and we walked all the way to Mohd Sultan to pub hop instead. Took the weekday NR home and it's really cosy, initially we were worried that there wasn't any NR but actually they've downsized the buses, that's why we didn't notice their existence. Had a good chat with Danping on the way back, but I wasn't familiar with the route (thought that it'll head straight to woodlands) and alighted at the bus-stop further away from home. According to Danping, it did turn into Sembawang after that, and I really regretted as I was all jittery during the walk home. I had many experiences of walking that path as late as midnight before, but I always tried to do it as fast as I could, it always gave me the feeling that someone could just follow and mug me from behind or something. The idea of walking through the quiet and dark park is really unsafe at 3am in the morning. I only took around 10 minutes to reach my block, and I think I would have make myself run all the way home if I wore track shoes.
To add on to Miss Giam mis-used words:
-Once bitten, twice 'shine'
-'Close your toes' (instead of cross your fingers) It's hilarious, but after reading her email with lots of broken English, I'm beginning to feel that I'm really good at interpreting her messages no matter how broken her email is. Used to it, used to it..
Alright, last piece of update, I had started on my project 'Y', and hope it'll be completed on time! =)
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
Yeah..SIE photo, finally got rid of the extra Tan Liang Ping..hee hee..=)
Forbes Research Pte Ltd
Job Title Research Executive
Location Anson Road
Date Posted Friday, July 11, 2003
Responsibilities
Typical duties of an RE include meeting clients to identify the research problem, designing questionnaire, performing statistical analysis using SPSS, writing report and making presentations using PowerPoint. People who do well as a researcher are strong in both numerical and written language skills. They also tend to be analytical and highly critical in thought.
Requirements
Candidates must have a Merit or Honours degree in Business, Statistics, Psychology or Social Science.
Good knowledge of SPSS is essential for the position.
Distinctions in GCE 'O' or 'A' Level in English and or General Paper are much preferred.
Those who have done market research courses will have an advantage.
Applicants should be Singaporean citizens or hold relevant residence status.
Fresh graduates / Entry level applicants are encouraged to apply.
2 Full-Time positions available.
Hmm, I surfed into NUS ejob centre one fine day last week to see how's the job market is like and then I just 'happened' to send in my resume for quite a few jobs which I think I fitted the given requirements. The ejob service is one which you can just upload your resume and then apply for as many jobs as you wish. Everything is just a click away, yeah! I think I just wanted to see what will happen after that, and I had been happily clicking away for quite sometime already..heee. And then for this particular job, the Forbes director emailed me to ask for my O level English and GP results (hmm..don't think it's considered distinctions, isn't it?) I gave them the information and indicated that my SPSS knowledge is basic and I thought that it would be the end of what I'll hear from them. By right, I should be glad to know that at least they've shortlisted me for an interview, but I'm really quite apprehensive about it. I hate interviews! I think I really lack the eloquence, actually I don't even like to talk to people. I'm anti social. Sigh..looking on the bright side, at least this will be the start of the 20 interviews which I'll flunk before I land myself a job next year (hopefully!). Yah, it's a good start, and this is ironic actually; I'm not sure if I'm being optimisitic or pessimistic now. Heheh..maybe I should make it into a fun and interesting 'outing' for myself to gain some exposure...=P Now I'm really quite anxious as I think they'll test me on SPSS which I've long forgotten how to get it running after passing my stats II like more than a year ago.. Yah, I bet my blog will get to hear from me soon..=)
Job Title Research Executive
Location Anson Road
Date Posted Friday, July 11, 2003
Responsibilities
Typical duties of an RE include meeting clients to identify the research problem, designing questionnaire, performing statistical analysis using SPSS, writing report and making presentations using PowerPoint. People who do well as a researcher are strong in both numerical and written language skills. They also tend to be analytical and highly critical in thought.
Requirements
Candidates must have a Merit or Honours degree in Business, Statistics, Psychology or Social Science.
Good knowledge of SPSS is essential for the position.
Distinctions in GCE 'O' or 'A' Level in English and or General Paper are much preferred.
Those who have done market research courses will have an advantage.
Applicants should be Singaporean citizens or hold relevant residence status.
Fresh graduates / Entry level applicants are encouraged to apply.
2 Full-Time positions available.
Hmm, I surfed into NUS ejob centre one fine day last week to see how's the job market is like and then I just 'happened' to send in my resume for quite a few jobs which I think I fitted the given requirements. The ejob service is one which you can just upload your resume and then apply for as many jobs as you wish. Everything is just a click away, yeah! I think I just wanted to see what will happen after that, and I had been happily clicking away for quite sometime already..heee. And then for this particular job, the Forbes director emailed me to ask for my O level English and GP results (hmm..don't think it's considered distinctions, isn't it?) I gave them the information and indicated that my SPSS knowledge is basic and I thought that it would be the end of what I'll hear from them. By right, I should be glad to know that at least they've shortlisted me for an interview, but I'm really quite apprehensive about it. I hate interviews! I think I really lack the eloquence, actually I don't even like to talk to people. I'm anti social. Sigh..looking on the bright side, at least this will be the start of the 20 interviews which I'll flunk before I land myself a job next year (hopefully!). Yah, it's a good start, and this is ironic actually; I'm not sure if I'm being optimisitic or pessimistic now. Heheh..maybe I should make it into a fun and interesting 'outing' for myself to gain some exposure...=P Now I'm really quite anxious as I think they'll test me on SPSS which I've long forgotten how to get it running after passing my stats II like more than a year ago.. Yah, I bet my blog will get to hear from me soon..=)
Saturday, July 19, 2003
Today, I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, and everything seemed to go very wrong!!! &*$##@ Argghh.. felt so frustrated, but luckily it's only left an hour to go till this day end and nothing can go wrong again. Was really cursing and felt so sian at the beginning of the day.. Ever since my convocation day, the past few days that I had always started quite badly as I'm always running very late every morning (actually it was already afternoons). I was really determine to sleep earlier last night as I'm having the sucky marathon tuitioning today... Guess what? I was awoken by the thunder and lightning in the middle of the night (around 5 am??), then I went to the kitchen for a cup of water and then stared at the ceiling till my room turned bright slowly. Sigh... both my alarm clocks were screaming alternately when I finally dozed off. Suddenly feel so unmotivated about the kayaking tmr, I want to sleep in!! Yeah..looking forward to Monday morning.. The good thing is that I always feel much more happier during the weekdays, on the contrary to everybody else, and the weekdays are relatively longer than weekends, phew!
I think it's really the tuitions that's draining me off and leading my mood astray. Or maybe it just happened to be these two weeks that I'm in a really bad mood after the whole day. It's really bad, as it's Sat night and pple are going out to have fun while I'm mopping away. The good thing is that I went town to meet up with Yingzhi after her convocation and Aileen for dinner, really long time nver see them. Very happy shopping away after that, and I realised that I'm so free nowadays yet haven't been in town for the past one month! Didn't even know that Metro at Far East had now converted to many shops and it's even more unbelivable that I saw many many things that I would liked to buy. It's so affordable that we really can't restrain ourselves from spending, but luckily I'm really tired and not in the proper shopping mood, so we headed for home very early. Even so, I still managed to buy a new top and saw many more that I've decided that I'll go back and get them when I'm more prosperous.. (Erm, if that day ever come). We have this wonderful idea to save up during these few mths and go backpacking at the end of the year, it's really my dream since I'm not really keen to get a job so soon. Managed to get the two of them really interested about it..hee hee.. so glad to find slacking kakis to play with me. It's actually quite bad of me to use them as backups (=P) as Miss Giam had found internship and will be busy from now on, Miss Wu will also be starting lessons in a few weeks' time while Mr Lua will fly away a mth later. And meanwhile I'm still trying to cultivate mould on myself.. so I'm trying to recruit potential slackers on my side.
I think it's really the tuitions that's draining me off and leading my mood astray. Or maybe it just happened to be these two weeks that I'm in a really bad mood after the whole day. It's really bad, as it's Sat night and pple are going out to have fun while I'm mopping away. The good thing is that I went town to meet up with Yingzhi after her convocation and Aileen for dinner, really long time nver see them. Very happy shopping away after that, and I realised that I'm so free nowadays yet haven't been in town for the past one month! Didn't even know that Metro at Far East had now converted to many shops and it's even more unbelivable that I saw many many things that I would liked to buy. It's so affordable that we really can't restrain ourselves from spending, but luckily I'm really tired and not in the proper shopping mood, so we headed for home very early. Even so, I still managed to buy a new top and saw many more that I've decided that I'll go back and get them when I'm more prosperous.. (Erm, if that day ever come). We have this wonderful idea to save up during these few mths and go backpacking at the end of the year, it's really my dream since I'm not really keen to get a job so soon. Managed to get the two of them really interested about it..hee hee.. so glad to find slacking kakis to play with me. It's actually quite bad of me to use them as backups (=P) as Miss Giam had found internship and will be busy from now on, Miss Wu will also be starting lessons in a few weeks' time while Mr Lua will fly away a mth later. And meanwhile I'm still trying to cultivate mould on myself.. so I'm trying to recruit potential slackers on my side.
Thursday, July 17, 2003
It's been a tiring but really fun day, took a lot of photos. So glad to have family, friends and my boy boy with me.. it was a really happy occasion.. =) Was surprised that so many of them turned up to shake my hand and just be there for me. Really touched...Saw many friends that I've known from NUS and even made a new friend (was chit chatting with the graduate sitting next to me..heee) Yeah, now I can tell everyone that I'm a degree holder!
Wednesday, July 16, 2003
Oh my.. this is really very 'Jie Lun', even with the lyrics, I also dunno which part he's singing..=P And the new album is named after his mum..
杰伦第四张国语大碟“叶惠美”第一主打《以父之名》
以父之名( In the Names of the Father )
词：黄俊郎 曲：周杰伦
微凉的晨露 沾湿黑礼服 石板路有雾 父在低诉
无奈的觉悟 只能更残酷 一切都为了 通往圣堂的路
吹不散的雾 隐没了意图 谁轻柔踱步 停住
还来不及哭 穿过的子弹 就带走 温度
我们每个人都有罪 犯着不同的罪 我能决定谁对 谁又该要沈睡
争论不能解决 在永无止境的夜
关掉你的嘴 唯一的恩惠
挡在前面的人都有罪 后悔也无路可退 以父之名判决
那感觉没有适合字 就像边笑边掉泪 凝视着完全的黑
阻挡悲剧蔓延的悲剧会让我沈醉
低头亲吻我的左手 换取被宽恕的承诺
老旧管风琴在角落 一直一直一直伴奏
黑色帘幕被风吹动阳光无言的穿透 洒向那群被我驯服后的 兽
沉默的喊叫 沉默的喊叫 孤单开始发酵 不停对着我嘲笑 回忆逐渐延烧
曾经纯真的画面 残忍的温柔出现 脆弱时间到 我们一起来祷告
仁慈的父我已坠入 看不见罪的国度 请原谅我的自负
没人能说没人可说 好难承受 荣耀的背后刻着一道孤独
闭上双眼我又看见 当年那梦的画面 天空是?�?鞯奈�
父亲牵着我的双手 轻轻走过 清晨那安安静静的石板路
那斑驳的家徽 我擦拭了一夜 孤独的光辉 我才懂的感觉
烛光 不 不 停的 摇晃 猫头鹰在 窗棂上 对着远方眺望
通向 大厅的长廊 一样 说不出的沧桑
没有喧嚣 只有宁静围绕 我 慢慢睡着 天 刚刚破晓
杰伦第四张国语大碟“叶惠美”第一主打《以父之名》
以父之名( In the Names of the Father )
词：黄俊郎 曲：周杰伦
微凉的晨露 沾湿黑礼服 石板路有雾 父在低诉
无奈的觉悟 只能更残酷 一切都为了 通往圣堂的路
吹不散的雾 隐没了意图 谁轻柔踱步 停住
还来不及哭 穿过的子弹 就带走 温度
我们每个人都有罪 犯着不同的罪 我能决定谁对 谁又该要沈睡
争论不能解决 在永无止境的夜
关掉你的嘴 唯一的恩惠
挡在前面的人都有罪 后悔也无路可退 以父之名判决
那感觉没有适合字 就像边笑边掉泪 凝视着完全的黑
阻挡悲剧蔓延的悲剧会让我沈醉
低头亲吻我的左手 换取被宽恕的承诺
老旧管风琴在角落 一直一直一直伴奏
黑色帘幕被风吹动阳光无言的穿透 洒向那群被我驯服后的 兽
沉默的喊叫 沉默的喊叫 孤单开始发酵 不停对着我嘲笑 回忆逐渐延烧
曾经纯真的画面 残忍的温柔出现 脆弱时间到 我们一起来祷告
仁慈的父我已坠入 看不见罪的国度 请原谅我的自负
没人能说没人可说 好难承受 荣耀的背后刻着一道孤独
闭上双眼我又看见 当年那梦的画面 天空是?�?鞯奈�
父亲牵着我的双手 轻轻走过 清晨那安安静静的石板路
那斑驳的家徽 我擦拭了一夜 孤独的光辉 我才懂的感觉
烛光 不 不 停的 摇晃 猫头鹰在 窗棂上 对着远方眺望
通向 大厅的长廊 一样 说不出的沧桑
没有喧嚣 只有宁静围绕 我 慢慢睡着 天 刚刚破晓
Yeah, I'm back.. it's not hard to realise that I've just blog before I went to bed last night and now I just woke up and I'm back again. Ermm, this just shows how interesting my life is. Luckily Mum is out and now with my laptop back, I can surf inside my room without her nagging behind my back, yeah! I realise that my break from the addiction to net surfing is only temporary and an illusion. Now, I can feel my Xiaoxing breaking apart again, everynight it's hanging every now and then, and even my icq and broadband got problemsssss. Diee.. I should have requested the person to reformat my comp.
Oh okay, now what else to blog about? I dreamt about sailing last night, I wasn't sailing in my dream ( I wonder why? ) but watching lots of people sailing and it's very fun. And I woke up thinking that I want to go diving again. Sigh..really wondering if I should ask Mum for her opinion the next time I go diving. BUT, I think that'll be really suicidal, I'll sure kena lots of scoldings and probably I won't even be able to get out of the house. The safer measure is don't mention, don't ask and you'll don't even know if she's really against it to make yourself feel better. Yeah, I think she still doesn't know that I went diving at Aur this year. My conscience is speaking up again, just realised that I'm supposed to be HQ next week for meeting. And I'm still supposed to go for a few ATCs. I think at this age, I'm really not scared of pple scolding me but it's my conscience that pricking me. Maybe I can tell them that I went swimming everyday since I'm too bored and had a overdose of chlorine that made my hair like that. Yah right, that will be quite dumb also. Or maybe I should emphasize on the fact that I'm not a student anymore. So what? Still remember when Sis was in JC and we were rushing off for school 7 or 8 years ago, I had to help her spray her hair with black hair spray every morning so that she don't have to face disciplinary actions. hahaa.. I was really thinking why she so stupid, went through all these troubles and then have to cover up again.. dumb leh.
Oh okay, now what else to blog about? I dreamt about sailing last night, I wasn't sailing in my dream ( I wonder why? ) but watching lots of people sailing and it's very fun. And I woke up thinking that I want to go diving again. Sigh..really wondering if I should ask Mum for her opinion the next time I go diving. BUT, I think that'll be really suicidal, I'll sure kena lots of scoldings and probably I won't even be able to get out of the house. The safer measure is don't mention, don't ask and you'll don't even know if she's really against it to make yourself feel better. Yeah, I think she still doesn't know that I went diving at Aur this year. My conscience is speaking up again, just realised that I'm supposed to be HQ next week for meeting. And I'm still supposed to go for a few ATCs. I think at this age, I'm really not scared of pple scolding me but it's my conscience that pricking me. Maybe I can tell them that I went swimming everyday since I'm too bored and had a overdose of chlorine that made my hair like that. Yah right, that will be quite dumb also. Or maybe I should emphasize on the fact that I'm not a student anymore. So what? Still remember when Sis was in JC and we were rushing off for school 7 or 8 years ago, I had to help her spray her hair with black hair spray every morning so that she don't have to face disciplinary actions. hahaa.. I was really thinking why she so stupid, went through all these troubles and then have to cover up again.. dumb leh.
Oh yeah, it's my commencement day! Hmm..actually it should be one of my big day I guess, many years down the road I may be looking at the photos and thinking "those were the days" again.. Was thinking back about the last grad ceremony I had attended, and that was when I was leaving NY. It was really full of sadness and tears. Hee.. I don't think tomorrow will be as memorable as that but it's the first and the last time I'm going to school with my sisters and Mum after our primary school days. Was really surprised at their enthusiasm as intially I thought that they wouldn't bother and I even had the thought of skipping the whole commencement. Haven't get a proper family portrait done for years and finally we're going to do it at the studio after this, I'm really glad about it but at the same time, I'm also quite regrettable that I'm not getting a PhD or Masters to make the whole thing more meaningful..=P
13 tuition sessions, 2 meetings, 2 driving lessons, one KOP and a commencement..that's what keeping me busy this week and glad to say, more of the Vitamin M flowing into my pocket. No matter what, I'm still keeping myself really tired and busy and it's already the middle of July, heh..I'm really wondering when I'll start to feel bored. I think I'm indeed lucky (or unlucky), to be saved from the tiring and demoralising job search for the time being. Oh yeah, also looking forward to next Wed which happened to be my non-tuition day and Aileen had asked me to organise a hen party (hmm, really wondering why it's called a hen party in the first place) for the girls' night out in town. We had been thinking about this for weeks, sigh..think everyone is really deprived from a fair share of fun after working their heads off.. heh heh.. Just highlighted my hair although was quite determined that I'll nver colour my hair. Sigh, can't decide whether the effect is good or not, but personally don't really like it that much. Maybe I've seen too many pple with that kind of colour in school or on the streets, should have coloured it purple or blue instead. The only consolation is that Jay just coloured his hair for the new album! =) I'm excited, as 933 is going to play his new song on air tmr.. it's really the big day!
13 tuition sessions, 2 meetings, 2 driving lessons, one KOP and a commencement..that's what keeping me busy this week and glad to say, more of the Vitamin M flowing into my pocket. No matter what, I'm still keeping myself really tired and busy and it's already the middle of July, heh..I'm really wondering when I'll start to feel bored. I think I'm indeed lucky (or unlucky), to be saved from the tiring and demoralising job search for the time being. Oh yeah, also looking forward to next Wed which happened to be my non-tuition day and Aileen had asked me to organise a hen party (hmm, really wondering why it's called a hen party in the first place) for the girls' night out in town. We had been thinking about this for weeks, sigh..think everyone is really deprived from a fair share of fun after working their heads off.. heh heh.. Just highlighted my hair although was quite determined that I'll nver colour my hair. Sigh, can't decide whether the effect is good or not, but personally don't really like it that much. Maybe I've seen too many pple with that kind of colour in school or on the streets, should have coloured it purple or blue instead. The only consolation is that Jay just coloured his hair for the new album! =) I'm excited, as 933 is going to play his new song on air tmr.. it's really the big day!
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
Hmm, it's late at night but I'm still up, as I had slept all the way till 1pm this afternoon. Thinking that I haven't blog for the past few days, I've decided to take a look about the life of my friends. Surf into Xien's blog first, and was surprised at how much she had blog over the past week, it's all about her interviews, job searching and dilemma about what to do. I think I would have logged on and blog almost everyday if I'm as bored as her, actually I'm facing the same problem but putting everything behind my mind anyway...=P
Went into Danping's blog next and got updated about her life over the past few days when I wasn't around. I'm really amused and I must admit that her blogs are always quite interesting and entertaining. It's like reading Anne Frank's diary. Knew that she had a row with Zhixiong since Sunday, but can't help but log onto my own space and blog about it after reading what happened.. heh heh, as coincidentally also had the same long long talk when Hock Sui and I went to genting last week (or is this a new trend?).. It's really amazing, a few years ago when we all get together to talk crap we're all discussing about school and NP, but now we must be all getting on with age.. as slowly and slowly its all about future and jobs and sometimes even marriage and kids (the topic became a hype when Mei Hui gave birth recently). As for me, really haven't been givng it much thought as it's really walk one step, count one step. I don't even know when and where I will land myself a job right now. I think I'm really not very keen about planning for the future, not that I'm really against it. Hahaha.. Luckily we didn't have a heated arguement during the trip although there was certainly different views, it was just purely individual's fantasies of the future. I'm not really sure if I'm really as pessimistic and cynical as Zhixiong but luckily I read Danping's blogs, otherwise I really wouldn't know how it feel to be on the receiving end of it, as I know very well that I'm also very cynical. When I think about having children in future, all I can think of is the pain during labour and also no more diving and kayaking. The other day I was on the MRT and there was this pregnant lady who was lucky enough to be offered a seat in front of me, I was staring at her tummy and wondering about how gross it is to walk around with such a big tummy, and she had a bratty child with her as well. Mum used to tell me that I just popped out from the stone when I was a young child (as I'm a very naughty kid), now I know it's not possible and it can't be that easy.
Went into Danping's blog next and got updated about her life over the past few days when I wasn't around. I'm really amused and I must admit that her blogs are always quite interesting and entertaining. It's like reading Anne Frank's diary. Knew that she had a row with Zhixiong since Sunday, but can't help but log onto my own space and blog about it after reading what happened.. heh heh, as coincidentally also had the same long long talk when Hock Sui and I went to genting last week (or is this a new trend?).. It's really amazing, a few years ago when we all get together to talk crap we're all discussing about school and NP, but now we must be all getting on with age.. as slowly and slowly its all about future and jobs and sometimes even marriage and kids (the topic became a hype when Mei Hui gave birth recently). As for me, really haven't been givng it much thought as it's really walk one step, count one step. I don't even know when and where I will land myself a job right now. I think I'm really not very keen about planning for the future, not that I'm really against it. Hahaha.. Luckily we didn't have a heated arguement during the trip although there was certainly different views, it was just purely individual's fantasies of the future. I'm not really sure if I'm really as pessimistic and cynical as Zhixiong but luckily I read Danping's blogs, otherwise I really wouldn't know how it feel to be on the receiving end of it, as I know very well that I'm also very cynical. When I think about having children in future, all I can think of is the pain during labour and also no more diving and kayaking. The other day I was on the MRT and there was this pregnant lady who was lucky enough to be offered a seat in front of me, I was staring at her tummy and wondering about how gross it is to walk around with such a big tummy, and she had a bratty child with her as well. Mum used to tell me that I just popped out from the stone when I was a young child (as I'm a very naughty kid), now I know it's not possible and it can't be that easy.
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
Mum just told me about the death of the Iran twins who had their brains separated over the past few days. I wasn't really following the news until they died today and went to read about the whole process on Straits Times. Can't imagine how it'll feel if I'm stuck with someone else at my head for the past 22 years, then how do I decide where to go? Hmm..wondering how the Siamese twins Chang and Eng survived. They even had their own family, it's rather odd. I'm was beginning to feel really lucky about myself when I remembered that I have some birth defects also (but still feel lucky though!), I used to have a slightly less than perfect heart but fortunately it's still working well. The unilateral dimple is an inheritance from Mum and her ancestors, I think that's a really lucky birth disorder =), even though I've got quite tired of people asking me to dig another hole on my right cheek as well.
Monday, July 07, 2003
Yeah... my Xiaoxing is finally revived, with new motherboard, new speaker and new battery. Just scrolled down my blog and realised that I had been living without it since 25th April, that's more than two months since it went dead! Jolene will be thrilled as all her photos are intact, they didn't reformat the hard disk afterall, all the 'recent' documents used were all my notes for exams, term papers etc. I just can't believe how all these things are really useless to me now (I've deleted all the school stuff of the last semester rightaway).. =P But I'm still glad that some of the stuff are still here, at least I don't have to reinstall all the programs and download the songs again, even some the songs seems outdated now. =) This shows that sometimes you can get used to living your life without certain things; it may once seemed unbearable for you to part, but it's just a matter of time before we all get used to it. Life goes on... I think I've even cured quite a bit of my internet addiction in these few months, and I'm sleeping earlier and earlier every night instead of surfing aimlessly. I think probably the next time I'll be here in school again is convocation day!
Initially thought that I would be free the whole day, all my younger friends are going back to poly to start their new semester today, and all the other older friends are either bumming around or working their heads off. Was rather surprised when Edwin called to meet up for coffee later, I think he must be too bored on the first day of school. Although I have to travel to Bishan for tuition later and then come back to Clementi again for dinner and coffee with them, I'm quite glad that they've not forgotten me after I've MIA for a few weeks. I've been skipping quite a few of the gatherings, meetings etc.. this had never happened and everyone must be wondering what I'm up to.. =P
Initially thought that I would be free the whole day, all my younger friends are going back to poly to start their new semester today, and all the other older friends are either bumming around or working their heads off. Was rather surprised when Edwin called to meet up for coffee later, I think he must be too bored on the first day of school. Although I have to travel to Bishan for tuition later and then come back to Clementi again for dinner and coffee with them, I'm quite glad that they've not forgotten me after I've MIA for a few weeks. I've been skipping quite a few of the gatherings, meetings etc.. this had never happened and everyone must be wondering what I'm up to.. =P
Sunday, July 06, 2003
What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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Woah..can't believe I'm Dory, especially when Hock Sui keeps saying that the fish reminds him of Serene.. And on my, that irritating whale voice! Hahaha.. but I'm really glad though, as Dory is positive!
Yeah, it's a bright sunny Sunday morning!! =) I seldom blog on Sunday as usually all my weekends are burnt outside, especially for the past few weeks. So naturally I'm so glad that for once I can sleep as late as I want.
Kayaking
Supposed to be down at club kayaking today, but I'm still glad that I don't need to travel all the way to the east this morning. Didn't get as much rest as I've needed to recover fully, and I think my flu and cough is suffering from a relapse instead. I'm still quite motivated about kayaking (maybe the idea of getting allowance is still a novelty to me), mainly because more and more friends are there to play with me!! Yeah! Yah, and after taking courses the past weeks, I think it's really time that I practice harder on my rusty skills.. *sheepish*
Tuition
Yesterday was really a marathon tuition day, I was really frustrated in the morning as my tuitions were back to back, I was running late inevitably and I wasn't getting any breaks to catch my breath and grab something to eat.. Sheesh.. It was really that bad. I had to take cab to travel around, it's really ultimate challenge. But of course, the motivation was that I was getting my allowances, and that lifted me away from my temporary bankruptcy. I was organizing my schedule in my mind yesterday, and I was thinking of finding a replacement for kayaking next Sunday, so that I can go Genting again without canceling my tuitions. The next thing I know, I was retrenched..haha.. great! Sometimes, psychic powers are wonderful. Joel's mum just called this morning for makeup tuition tomorrow as it's Youth Day holiday (didn't realise there's still such thing as Youth Day), I think school holidays and public holidays makes no difference to me anymore.. I can declare for one whenever I like.
Angel and Devil
What a serious title I've placed up there. I awoke this morning feeling rather guilty, I think I'm really not myself at times (or maybe, that's how I'm really like). And as I laid in bed, trying to sort things out, I'm reminded of the Smurf cartoon I've watched as a kid, and there's the 'Angel' and 'Red Devil' appearing in the minds of the smurfies and telling them to do good and bad things. For a moment, I thought that I'm not just sick physically, but maybe I'm getting schizophrenic..hiak hiak.. Sigh, the devil voice is getting rather vivid and disturbing at times lately and it's building resentments in me. The sad thing is.. all the resentments I have are all towards the same person. Well, he's just an easy target I guess. As for the angelic voice, I think that's the normal me trying to tell myself to get a grip, get a grip of yourself.. Hmm, I really hate to lament, and get all whiney. What's the point? But sometimes I think that's what everyone need. Read a mail from Serene this morning about Casey after her marriage finding it more difficult to find a listening ear and felt that she has a point there. Thought that I should have went to Nicole's birthday bash last night, but after reading Giam's mail, I'm think I really didn't make the wrong choice last night. Hahah..although it's really bad of me not supporting Ms Wu organising, but I think it would have been even more awkward for me.
Kayaking
Supposed to be down at club kayaking today, but I'm still glad that I don't need to travel all the way to the east this morning. Didn't get as much rest as I've needed to recover fully, and I think my flu and cough is suffering from a relapse instead. I'm still quite motivated about kayaking (maybe the idea of getting allowance is still a novelty to me), mainly because more and more friends are there to play with me!! Yeah! Yah, and after taking courses the past weeks, I think it's really time that I practice harder on my rusty skills.. *sheepish*
Tuition
Yesterday was really a marathon tuition day, I was really frustrated in the morning as my tuitions were back to back, I was running late inevitably and I wasn't getting any breaks to catch my breath and grab something to eat.. Sheesh.. It was really that bad. I had to take cab to travel around, it's really ultimate challenge. But of course, the motivation was that I was getting my allowances, and that lifted me away from my temporary bankruptcy. I was organizing my schedule in my mind yesterday, and I was thinking of finding a replacement for kayaking next Sunday, so that I can go Genting again without canceling my tuitions. The next thing I know, I was retrenched..haha.. great! Sometimes, psychic powers are wonderful. Joel's mum just called this morning for makeup tuition tomorrow as it's Youth Day holiday (didn't realise there's still such thing as Youth Day), I think school holidays and public holidays makes no difference to me anymore.. I can declare for one whenever I like.
Angel and Devil
What a serious title I've placed up there. I awoke this morning feeling rather guilty, I think I'm really not myself at times (or maybe, that's how I'm really like). And as I laid in bed, trying to sort things out, I'm reminded of the Smurf cartoon I've watched as a kid, and there's the 'Angel' and 'Red Devil' appearing in the minds of the smurfies and telling them to do good and bad things. For a moment, I thought that I'm not just sick physically, but maybe I'm getting schizophrenic..hiak hiak.. Sigh, the devil voice is getting rather vivid and disturbing at times lately and it's building resentments in me. The sad thing is.. all the resentments I have are all towards the same person. Well, he's just an easy target I guess. As for the angelic voice, I think that's the normal me trying to tell myself to get a grip, get a grip of yourself.. Hmm, I really hate to lament, and get all whiney. What's the point? But sometimes I think that's what everyone need. Read a mail from Serene this morning about Casey after her marriage finding it more difficult to find a listening ear and felt that she has a point there. Thought that I should have went to Nicole's birthday bash last night, but after reading Giam's mail, I'm think I really didn't make the wrong choice last night. Hahah..although it's really bad of me not supporting Ms Wu organising, but I think it would have been even more awkward for me.
Friday, July 04, 2003
Yeah, back from genting!! It was a really wonderful trip, I think the best part of it was the feeling of seeing clouds all around me, really missed this sensational awe since I went to Thailand and we lived on the hill top for a week. It was great because of the company but unfortunately I caught a flu there due to the cool and dry weather. It started off with a bad sore throat on the day we visited the amusement park, and initially I thought I screamed and shouted too much. But on the last day there, it turned into a fever and my temp was running high when I'm back last night. Luckily I had already have my fair bit of fun on the roller coasters (there were around 5 or 6 but mostly no 'kick' ones..), the space shot ( I went up twice with the guys!!), the bumper car (all of us played twice), even the carousel and the ferris wheel. Yeah!! Actually it wasn't the best amusement park I've visited, but just enjoying myself as much as I can, and the fact that it was quite cheap made it a really good deal. Probably will be back again next week..haha, I just can't believe it..
Well, back to the flu, felt really larthegic today as I'm couped up at home. Was feeling really sorry for myself as I'm left all alone at home after everyone went to work*sob sob*, and I think being sick made me very sad and unhappy with everyone and everything for a while just now..sigh. Mum managed to drag me to the doc this morning, and after eating the medicine and knocked out for a few hours, I feel so much better and happier again! =) Think the next two days going to be hectic again despite the doc advicing me to get more rest, so I'm trying my best to rest and recover by today... crossing my fingers.. =P
Well, back to the flu, felt really larthegic today as I'm couped up at home. Was feeling really sorry for myself as I'm left all alone at home after everyone went to work*sob sob*, and I think being sick made me very sad and unhappy with everyone and everything for a while just now..sigh. Mum managed to drag me to the doc this morning, and after eating the medicine and knocked out for a few hours, I feel so much better and happier again! =) Think the next two days going to be hectic again despite the doc advicing me to get more rest, so I'm trying my best to rest and recover by today... crossing my fingers.. =P
Tuesday, July 01, 2003
Okay, just now was only testing out the new templete and everything..it's quite cool. Yep, had 4 days of kayaking in a row, it wasn't too bad actually, at least I have allowance!!
As compared to the previous few days today was really eventful. First woke up early in the morning to go CMPB for my aptitude test. It's quite tiring, initially I always thought that I'm quite smart as my IQ was supposed to be above national average..hahahhah. But it was a series of maths, physics, memory and psychological test.. phew! The worst section was the one when I had to rotate an image in my mind, and I really couldn't decide on the correct answer. When I went back to check, changed most of my answers again..=P Actually decided that I don't want to sign on, but just giving a try anyway, it'll take a long time to process also.
After that, met Shumin at Orchard to go school and collect my graduation gown. It was quite an exciting process to try on the gown, mortar board and got so many 'free' things.. I thought that the whole thing will only take half an hour, since most people would have opted for home delivery. BUT i couldn't be more wrong.. there was a really long queue, and it was already an hour before they close for the day, and there's just more and more pple coming in. At the end of the day, I was really very tired. The scene was just like when I matriculated 3 years ago, it was at the same place and the same crowd of pple queueing in the MPSH. During then, many people are 'attacking us', and giving out brochures to join this and join that. Today, there were still many people coming to us, asking us to make orders for photos, plaque.. hmm, how ironic.. =P
Tomorrow very very early in the morn finally I'm having the long awaiting break with my favourite friends. We are going to genting, a place that I've always wanted to visit as a child. Not too grand for a grad trip though, but I know that the company will be great. Initially wasn't too keen as I have to reschedule the driving and tuitions, and I'm just feeling tired. It was definitely a dilemma. But as it got closer, seeing eveyone's enthusiasm was some kind of motivation, and I just can't disappoint them. Really feel so guilty when I called up and cancel tuition just now, nver feel so bad and irresponsible. For the first time in all these years, I wondered if they will think of a change in tutor. It was really not a nice feeling, and I almost feel too tired to go for my night driving lesson. Along the way there, I've decided to fulfil my commitment when I'm back, had been a really horrible tutor this hols.
I must be very distracted by the phone call just before I left home. I was supposed to get some snacks for everyone for the Genting trip, after the queue at NTUC slowly snaked forward and I finally reached the cashier, then I realised that I left my wallet at home with the gown bag! Felt really paiseh when I told the cashier and she called out to another staff to open the cash drawer.. and there were still a lot of pple behind me in the queue. It was really not my day, I almost thought that I will meet a horrible instructor at the driving center to complete the whole day. Luckily that never happened, and my mood really improved after that. Sigh..maybe it was a blessing in disguise, that I had to learn about the complicating gear shifting today, and the boh chup instructor was quite happy with me. That really kept my mind busy for a while..
Okay, so much update for today..time to pack and sleep early..=P Yeah..
As compared to the previous few days today was really eventful. First woke up early in the morning to go CMPB for my aptitude test. It's quite tiring, initially I always thought that I'm quite smart as my IQ was supposed to be above national average..hahahhah. But it was a series of maths, physics, memory and psychological test.. phew! The worst section was the one when I had to rotate an image in my mind, and I really couldn't decide on the correct answer. When I went back to check, changed most of my answers again..=P Actually decided that I don't want to sign on, but just giving a try anyway, it'll take a long time to process also.
After that, met Shumin at Orchard to go school and collect my graduation gown. It was quite an exciting process to try on the gown, mortar board and got so many 'free' things.. I thought that the whole thing will only take half an hour, since most people would have opted for home delivery. BUT i couldn't be more wrong.. there was a really long queue, and it was already an hour before they close for the day, and there's just more and more pple coming in. At the end of the day, I was really very tired. The scene was just like when I matriculated 3 years ago, it was at the same place and the same crowd of pple queueing in the MPSH. During then, many people are 'attacking us', and giving out brochures to join this and join that. Today, there were still many people coming to us, asking us to make orders for photos, plaque.. hmm, how ironic.. =P
Tomorrow very very early in the morn finally I'm having the long awaiting break with my favourite friends. We are going to genting, a place that I've always wanted to visit as a child. Not too grand for a grad trip though, but I know that the company will be great. Initially wasn't too keen as I have to reschedule the driving and tuitions, and I'm just feeling tired. It was definitely a dilemma. But as it got closer, seeing eveyone's enthusiasm was some kind of motivation, and I just can't disappoint them. Really feel so guilty when I called up and cancel tuition just now, nver feel so bad and irresponsible. For the first time in all these years, I wondered if they will think of a change in tutor. It was really not a nice feeling, and I almost feel too tired to go for my night driving lesson. Along the way there, I've decided to fulfil my commitment when I'm back, had been a really horrible tutor this hols.
I must be very distracted by the phone call just before I left home. I was supposed to get some snacks for everyone for the Genting trip, after the queue at NTUC slowly snaked forward and I finally reached the cashier, then I realised that I left my wallet at home with the gown bag! Felt really paiseh when I told the cashier and she called out to another staff to open the cash drawer.. and there were still a lot of pple behind me in the queue. It was really not my day, I almost thought that I will meet a horrible instructor at the driving center to complete the whole day. Luckily that never happened, and my mood really improved after that. Sigh..maybe it was a blessing in disguise, that I had to learn about the complicating gear shifting today, and the boh chup instructor was quite happy with me. That really kept my mind busy for a while..
Okay, so much update for today..time to pack and sleep early..=P Yeah..