Friday, September 26, 2003

New shocking discovery: Happened to went to one blogspot page, was shocked to see my blog and Danping's blog listed in the author's page. ( http://sweetsorrow-.blogspot.com/) My god, how did she get these links!! Then further reading of the page.. eh.. it's one of my NYNPCC Sec 3s, who I'm think I can't match their faces and names yet. Hmm.. is it this easy to search for one's blog page in the web?? Think Danping must be kicking herself..hahaaa.. imagine the whole unit reading our thoughts everyday!!

Anyway, think 7 years is really an age gap big enough for me not to understand these young girls, and maybe they also dun understand what I'm ranting about everyday. =P Generation gap..generation gap.. Erm, I hope that my blogging is not too 儿童不宜.
Sigh.. still having flu and I've skipped tuition to have more rest at home, hope it's not going to spoil my weekend at OBS tomorrow.. =( Quite sickening yeah??

Anyway, was really excited when I saw the new school ranking on the papers today. NANYANG had finally beaten the CHINESE HIGH SCHOOL!! Oh man, I think this really calls for a celebration, and maybe NY should have one week of school holidays next week. Hahahaa..fat hopes though. I've had been out of there for years... but think the school really did instil the wrong values of being competitive about the school ranking and results in us. Hee hee..=P In my fond memories, the whole school will be really tensed the day when the 'O's results are out (it will also determine if the school will declare a holiday, which always happened to fall near my birthday..=P), or when the top 50 school ranking is out. And our principal (old Mrs Ng) will specially call for an assembly to slowly analyse the results to us, putting on more stress to the graduating batch and brain-washing everyone. Duh.. =P Those were the days.. I remember during one of the combined sports day with the Chinese High School (think I was only Sec 2), the principal of that school gave a speech and reminded us girls not to be too competitive or something like that, must always 'give in' to the boys. Hmm..that had certainly achieved a negative effect and from that day onwards, it was always the dream of the whole school to be more hardworking and beat those gloaters hands down. =P Maybe we can call it the 'Nanyang Dream'.. heehee.. took us so many years to achieve it..

Come to think of it, the enemity is rather childish (my impression of tchs had always been baddddd), heh heh.. but brought back many fond memories of yesteryears. =)
Ahhhh chooooooo.. was sneezing the whole time today, it's quite irritating. But luckily didn't develop into flu. Think the weather is quite bad, had been raining since last night and most of today. Wanted to go kayaking.. but didn't go after all, was feeling quite lethargic anyway..=P

Thursday, September 25, 2003

Yeah..it's raining outside, great for sleeping!! But just now I've slept after coming home, too tired.. Another few pairs of friends have broken up, think it's really in the air now. Cupid must be slacking like me, not doing his job.. =P I think different people really have different agenda and philosophy when they found someone to be with.. it's sort of strange but that's the way of life. I thot it's important to know the person well before you be with him/her, at least must be friends? or good friends? But many others are getting to know each other after they are already an item.. like 'love at first sight'.. it's all rubbish. Hahaha..enough of this.

I think the society is flawed, maybe if I'm a guy nobody will say anything if I don't know how to cook and wash. Why, why am I not a man? Then can sit back and relax at home already, sigh. Hmm.. maybe someday I really need to learn... I think cooking is like doing experiments, it's a series of combustion and chemical reaction. Then maybe if you add the wrong elements or too much of something the whole thing will go wrong.. Somemore experiments have to keep trying and trying before you get the best results, it's just like what the scientists did. Anyway, I'm lousy at science, and I'm lousy at cooking too.. I can't whip up anything edible, not yet..
Today I went to Subordinate courts for a series of test (pre-selection for interpreter's job) and it was from 9am to 3pm!! Drained me. This is the first time I've been there, there were a lot of people walking around the whole place and it wasn't as grand as what I've seen on TV (maybe I didn't get to go into the courtrooms, of course) but the series of steps outside were very familiar, always shown on the chinese drama!! =P Most of the people were in suits, both men and women. I think even if I stand in the middle of Shenton Way, won't find that many dressing like that, since the weather here is not very friendly to put on too many layers. The place where I had the test was a nice room on the 9th floor, and there were two papers and one oral test. In between all that papers I went down to the ground floor for the vending machine and the lift system there is badddd.. I think HDB flats in Sembawang is much better. Another complaint I had is the NE MRT line.. was quite anxious to find the place as the test was held very early in the morning and I don't exactly know where it is (I usually have problems with finding directions, so have to get there early). It was definitely the rush hours in the morning, I changed to NE line at Dhoby Ghaut as I'm supposed to alight at Clarke Quay. There was a big crowd getting out of the train when the train arrived, and I was so glad that it's still quite early.. But before any of the many commuters on the platform could wait on the train, the doors of the MRT closed and it just went off with the cabins half-empty. *jaw dropped all the way to the floor* Everyone there was so stunned and stared helplessly as the train disappeared, and the next train was only 10 minutes later!! (really tough luck, I think just traveling in the morning can make one's mood very bad) Luckily I stepped into the room just in time.. but after the whole of today I can really understand the woes of people who are working in the central district. I've experienced wholesale what it was like if I'm working in an office there, had to drag myself up early and stand throughout the journey from Sembawang to my destination. After the tests, I went for tuition and happened to meet with the peak hours crowd at the end of it. The bus was crowded and moving slowly, traffic is heavy and just a day like this made me so exhausted. Now I understand .. Monday blues.. sometimes people are cursing and swearing. Even though I have lots of patience, still can feel it in me. The feeling is not good..face the world man!

Anyway back to the test, the first paper was translation from English to Chinese (it was about some punishment laws) and the second one was vice versa (about NDP). I just went there without any preparation but I saw people with thick stacks of notes and the dictionary. Luckily they also provided us with dictionaries and I hogged a thick and good one. *sheepish grin* That was my first trial with translation, didn't take the course in Arts but I found it quite easy.. finished the paper quite fast, and the rest were still working furiously while I copied out everything again. It's either because I'm an amateur and missed out lots of stuff, or I haven't lost my language abilities. I think translation from Chinese to English was certainly much easier..only used half the time given and went off for lunch, my stomach was growling! But I totally flopped during the oral test, none of us knew that we were supposed to do translations in dialects. And the worst thing is, I don't know any local dialects. Only can understand my mother's family dialect, but nobody else in the world share the same language. Sigh..quite sad, this is certainly a defect of birth, but the person told me that aN interpreter is supposed to acquire at least one or two of them. It's rather funny, just imagine somebody pass you a passage in English and expect you to tell them in Hokkien/ Cantonese, when you are not born into that dialect. Crazy world..

Tuesday, September 23, 2003

Yep.. I'm certain feeling some kind of guilt after reading Danping's blog, people are dying doing FYP and getting killed by all sorts of boredom, and here I am..wondering who to go and watch the movie with. Hahahaa...I'm one lucky pig indeed. =P How about this? I've done nothing but slept the whole day away and went for a leisure swim in the evening.. hee hee, certainly no Monday blues for me! Yeah, at certain moments when people are dreading to go to work or going back to school after a tiring weekend, I think I have no problem with resting all my worth on Monday.

It's Casey's birthday today, she's only half a year older than me but I've realised that she really leading her life very different from me. She's already working, have her own family and flat, and of course everyone knows where I am right now. Slacking! Hahahaa.. I think I'm more like a student while she's already on her way to become an Auntie.. ahem! I mean a real family woman. =P Met up with her, Aichin and Nic yesterday evening after I'm back from OBS; it's also due to the lucky fact that I don't have other committments to rush on Monday, so dragged myself there after having dinner with Giam and Wu. Now I think it's really true that people whom we used to think are the last ones to get married will be the first instead. Casey was telling me about this crappy and crazy senior whom I known since I was in Sec One (she was my councilor and she called herself 'Sticky') who just went through her customary wedding. Oh my.. when we were still in school absolutely nobody can imagine her getting married so soon!! Well, so I guess maybe the next person will be Danping.. hahahhahahaha..

Recently did a test which somebody sent to me, and my mental age is only 20 years old, ermm.. so what does that mean? I hope I'm certainly not horrifying immature and childish. But I agree that I'm quite non-chalent about life.. people used to call it 'boh chup' but I've found a nicer word for it now. =) Meaning is still the same though..hahhaa.. Anyway, we had a lot of time our first night there at OBS and a lot of energy left, so was having a lot of crappy chit-chatting and 'fooling around' making Giam our main target. But amidst of it, Vernon brought up a serious qns about why all of us wanted to go for coaching. I guess I'm one lucky pig who happened to meet the right time and right people unlike the rest of them who were being volunteered, it was really pure luck for me. =P It's more of like a herd mentality... like what Wu mentioned. Wouldn't try to make up a noble reason, I think I also can't speak of the real reason. But nevertheless, there's certainly quite an amount of positive motivation for me, I guess it's really intrinsic. Hee hee.. Maybe when I'm starting off something new I really need company, but now I've realised that all my 'comrades' are all missing in action, but I'm still around in the team, and involved in the next IPC. Yah, and if you scroll down my blog of the past few mths, I did mention that the last time is my last time, BUT now it's the same thing!!?? Why am I doing all this as if I've just graduated from J03??Can't believe me right.. guess I'm really an idiot, but at least I'm a happy idiot, and somehow there's still a fair amount of intrinsic motivation to justify... =) I think people are starting to suspect I'm taking a year long break like Stef Sun (yah right.. and as if I've got the $$$ like her), taking my own sweet time to go kayaking, go for CI course, go Ramunia before it's time to work!! Siao.. but even I myself suspect that I may be doing exactly that. =P Well, think everything needs motivation to be carried out, either intrinsic or extrinsic.. waiting for that day to come. Realised that I've missed studying after going to OBS course, I'm the kind who enjoy taking in knowledge from words and strings of sentences. I like learning through theory even more than practical. Mum is encouraging me to further my studies, sort of comtemplating about borrowing/getting money from my parents to do the part time course. But still in a dilemma. Partly due to the nature of the course and mainly, borrowing money means that I'll be restricted in my activities after that, and I know I'll hate that.

Thursday, September 18, 2003

Usually watching TV is my least favourite activity as it's quite boring and can be a waste of time! But for the past few days, had been catching the drama <倩女幽魂> on Channel U everynight. The storyline line is quite interesting, as there's many small parts and little stories intertwined together. Maybe I'm just bored, but think it's quite an alluring story, and getting better. They have quite a strong cast in this show which is another attractive part... Daniel Chan is Ning Caichen, the scholar who fell in love with the female ghost Xiao Qian, acted by 大 S. But right now, she's still haven't die yet and is still a human in the show. They are star-crossed lovers for seven lifetimes. Wow..I'm amazed, who can think of such storyline? It's something like the vampire show which was one of my favourites a few years ago. =)

Had missed a few chances of watching the show Turn Left Turn Right, I think it's a show that everyone been wanting to watch. Heard not-so-good from the experts but amateurs like my friends said it's worth watching a second time, even the guys. Hahaha..I've decided to wait; can't make up my mind after promising too many pple to watch with them.

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

Just added Aileen's blog link to my page.. hee hee. And she's really been blogging a lot for the past week! Think working life must be really boring, hahaha.. Anyway I was off blogging mood for the past few days, so wasn't as long-winded as before. Now back just for a short one.

Yoohoo.. in case Ling is dropping by here, Blog is the short form for Weblog. Get it? =P Anyway, my templete is 'nicer' because blogspot used to provide a lot more variety of templetes and backgrounds. I didn't do anything to change it on my own, and they just provided me with this.. but I don't know what happened after they revamped everything. Now it's all left the dull, boring designs, so I don't bother changing anymore.

Went on shopping spree after the stayover at club on Sunday. Got my allowances from my tuitions and kayaking, so suddenly I felt that I need a lot of things... Erm, was resisting the urge to splurge and convinced myself that some of these 'needs' are just 'wants'. Hahhaa.. Was quite tired after shopping around Cityhall area when I met a friend at Suntec. We went to Thailand together last year and therefore we're somehow quite close after spending two weeks there together. Was quite surprised and happy to meet him as I haven't see him around after we've graduated, but somehow his girlfriend who was with him made me feel quite uncomfortable. Can't explain it, but her behaviour was rather unfriendly which is out of the norm that kind. At first I thought that she's just a passer-by, as she didn't even seem to acknowledge the fact that her bf had met a friend. I guessed she just didn't like other girls talking to him, so I made my escape really fast to put her mind at ease, and went on with my shopping. It's really strange, as we were only chatting normally, and I'm not the exceptionally sociable type, so of course won't touch her bf right? Anyway, the friend whom I met was a really nice person, so didn't ask him too much about his gf also. He is a 100% good boyfriend from what we know of him during the trip, as he was the only one who's attached among all of us and during the trip almost everything he bought was for his gf, somemore he did spent a lot to make long-distance calls back everynight. We kept teasing him about it as one of us happened to overheard his conversations on the phone..hahaa..

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

Sunny daze
Think going for a few camps is good, like what Danping says, it helps to take away some unfounded worries. Anyway, this week is turning out to be a better one for me.. after coming back from the Area 2 ATC and Primary 5 camp, which were both quite fun and enjoyable. Think the sun is finally out with the rainbow! Initially had a lousy time on Monday morning when I got up to go for the camp, as I was stucked in my room. Somehow the door won't budge no matter how I turned the door knob, ended up using the phone in my room to call the living room as nobody heard me shouting for help. Mum called the locksmith and I took the next hour getting confined in, thirsty and worried that I'll be late for the ATC. Really suay.. Went back to sleep for a while in the end. Hee.. come to think of it, whole incident was quite funnie but Mum was quite horrified afterall. She left my room without a working door knob now so that it can't be closed and locked at all. =P

Okay, short updates. Next two days are going to be another two kayaking days for me, as there's a lot of courses in club this week. Initially was reluctant to go for kayaking again as ATC was going to be tiring, and everyone was so shocked that I told them I'm going to pia so many kayaking sessions this week. But Erik was looking for help urgently and I think I'm still coping quite well with the ATC, not too tired out. Still having another KOP before the gathering this Sat, that's my fifth day of teaching kayaking this week, only left with two days on the land. Think I'm spending more time in the sea than at home this week. =)

Sunday, September 07, 2003

Singapore Hits Award
Yeah, missed the live broadcast last night as I went to visit Michelle after the camp, and Jay bagged 3 awards this year!! This morning, managed to catch 933 top 20 hits for the week and another song <<晴天>> from the new album is on the list now, another of my favourites but it's a sad song.. still wondering why the song is named this way.

晴天


词、曲:JAY

故事的小黄花 从出生那年就飘着 童年的荡秋千
随记忆一直晃到现在 ㄖㄨㄟ ㄙㄡ ㄙㄡ ㄒ一 ㄉㄡ ㄒ一
ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ
吹着前奏望着天空我想起花瓣试着掉落 为你翘课的那一天
花落的那一天 教室的那一间 我怎么看不见 消失的下雨天
我好想再淋一遍 没想到失去的勇气我还留着 好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开 刮风这天 我试过握着你手
但偏偏 雨渐渐 大到我看你不见 还要多久
我才能在你身边 等待放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点
从前从前 有个人爱你很久 但偏偏 雨渐渐 把距离吹得好远
好不容易 又能再多爱一天 但故事的最后你好像说了拜拜






Teacher..teacher..
Came back from the Pri 5 camp that Giam was in charge of organising, must say that she really did a good job. All of us were quite unwilling to go at first, and we woke up very very early on Friday morn (that was when I was beginning to regret) but at the end of it, hmm... enjoyable in a way and all of us enjoyed it somehow. I must say that the kids are quite cute and I liked them a lot, but was really horrifying at the beginning. I was having real headache and felt so exhuasted on the evening of the first day. Really will give second thoughts about teaching primary school children if I were to become a teacher..hee hee.. and can't imagine what it's like to bring up my own kids when I'll have to face them 24 hours for years.. NO!! Sigh, just after one day, I felt so tired when we were on our way back from camp.. quite glad that it's only a 2D1N camp. It's not the activities, but just coaxing them, rounding them up and making them stand in lines is tiring most of the time. Children are real surprising, they don't mind getting dirty and wet, but they're always complaining and whining for attention.. keep having them running up to me and say 'Teacher..teacher.." argghh..=P

Raining days
The past one week had been tough..tough..tough for me..=P It's just like the sunlight disappearing behind the clouds, it'll be out one day. It's not just the Pri 5 camp that's making me tired, but I feel both emotionally and physically exhausted. It's been an unpleasant week and I just feel quite sick and tired of my own life at this moment. Sigh, got a msg from Giam this morning and felt glad about her care and concern. She is more sensitive than many others, and at some moments, I'm very appreciative. On the MRT ride back yesterday, she was asking about my eyebags and eye rings, and I just realised that she's right when I looked at the mirror today.. I'm looking more tired and haggard then ever. Panda eyes..=P Really wish that I can talk about it, but I can squeak no more. I don't understand why too..

Thursday, September 04, 2003

天若有情天亦老, 月如无痕月常圆


Just thought that these verses are pretty well written, especially the second part which is less well known by people. Now I know, why the moon is only round once a month. Isn't it true that nothing is perfect in this world? Hmm.. Mooncake festival is approaching again, and it's getting to me again. I'm just like a werewolf who's afraid of the full moon, hahaa.. the festival is just like a big irony to me. How I wish it's like last year, when I can escape to Dayang for diving. I'm always an escapist.

Wednesday, September 03, 2003

Turn Left Turn Right
This thurs they're having a sneak preview of the show. Guess where it'll be showing? On the overhead bridge separating Nanyang Girls' and the Chinese High...and they're inviting people to go there in school uniform. I think they felt that's it's a perfect place as the students from the two schools are always walking in separate directions.. I think it's a bizarre idea, can't believe my ears when I heard it over the radio. I prefer not to have my path crossed with anyone from that side of the road..=P