Wednesday, April 21, 2004

Yep..I'm in a much better mood, so back to blog about the nonsensical stuff again, Hurray!! First of all, there was a day or two when I used the photo above instead of the baby one, but Darlie commented that pple usually use black and white photos only to put on the lorry head during your funeral, so I changed it. But nevertheless, Ling also commented that the pic is nice, and I think..what the heck! It's quite nice since it got my face.. so now it's back. Hahahaa..


The next thing is that Xiaxue blogs are back and I'm much more used to seeing her back at blogspot then the Dream8 blogspace. Yeah.. Last night I also went to Mr Brown's blog (Darlie's fav) and read all the corny pictures he put up in the gallery. Just realised that all along his mainpage, which is the one I merely browsed through, is actually the summary of his SNE and other stuff.. no wonder I don't find them very interesting at all. Hehe.. I like the corny pictures. Also went to Dr Sheep blog and saw what she bought for her froggy prince's birthday. Hey, I realised that we have the same kind of frogs, but probably not the same froggy as her frog is already 27, while mine is barely 23. Hahaha..we share the same dreams though.

Monday, April 19, 2004

我是不是很笨?为什么明知道不该担心的事,我还是禁不住担心呢?人生都应该看开点,才会快乐嘛

Haiz..I'm seriously feeling that depression is setting in again, why can't I be happier? Hmm..I'm praying that it's PMS and will go away faster! Sigh... stress is coming in from all areas of my life, but I can't put a finger on what's making me sad sad leh.. Cheer up soon!
Hmm..if you're wondering why I'm not back to update the list and previous blog, I'm just feeling quite stressed up and don't feel like blogging at the moment. Please forgive me, cos

My dream job had turned out to be quite stressful! There's no such thing as a dream job in the world..sheesh..

Hahahaha..I'll be back..

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

A tribute to the teachers

Okay, I'm in the blogging mood again, I picked up a book called "Cher, cher!" written by a very inspired teacher. Yep, no prizes for guessing why the name is so weird, cher cher..its the Singaporean kids' way of calling their teacher. Eh, very innovative right? I will slap the kid if he/she ever call me that..

And yah, in the book.. I found something interesting written by the author, its the "Top 20 ways to identify a teacher"... from thousands of miles away. Well, personally I find that the list erm.. rather UNflattering and outdated, heee hee..meant to humour people I guess. Nevertheless, let's just share with you. Spot the teacher contest! (Note: the words in italic are my personal comments, and I'm not targeting the comments at my colleagues in my current school. Ha!)

1. Dress Drowdily (no time to go shopping; no fashion sense; can't be bothered.)
Well, it's true to a certain extent, especially since the only people teachers meet day in and out are probably their students, the latest fashion statement never change in their eyes, as anyone they ever meet is in uniform all the time. What can be uglier? But I must say, the fashion sense only deteriorate when the teachers is OLDER than 30, probably married. Most of the younger teachers still go to school like it's a fashion parade.

2. Does not put on make up (no time to put on; what for; can't be bothered)
Hmm.. I haven't been to school without my makeup yet. But it's seems that not all teachers can be bothered with makeup, especially if they're at the auntie age.. Yah, what for lah?? Don't even have time to sleep leh. Well, I will try my best to uphold the image of a pretty teacher, thank you very much. I just don't want to be mistaken for a student actually.

3.Wear flatties (can run faster to catch naughty kids; already taller than many around.)
Well..well..I have to disagree to this. I have the habit of trying to spot teachers on MRT trains or other public places, and I think the best way is to look at their shoes. Slip-on heels are really the 'IN' thing now, and only teachers will be bothered to wear those heels which are covered or have a strap behind. Just look out for the straps around the ankles! I'm so addicted to find more pairs of shoes that I'm looking out for the straps whenever I go into a 'Charles and Keith'. Yep, and of course, the aunties are in the flatties lah.. those very comfortable types for standing up for a long time. I think shoes really pose a big problem for me, as I'm not very much taller than my students. Thus the option I have is to wear heels, and have to find those comfortable enough for me to stand on my feet for at least 4 hours a day.

4. Keep fingernails short (just in case need to pinch;won't collect chalk dust or dirt under nails.)
Hahaha...this is definitely out, we use white board with markers nowadays. But I haven't conduct any nail check for teachers yet, so not sure about the exact length of fingernails they keep.

5. Does not use nail polish (no nails to polish; save money;no time)
Ohh...this is definitely not for me. Did I tell you about my pedicures? They're really enjoyable sessions for me, to e served and pampered at the salon. I've already spent more than $100 on pedicures this year..

6. Likes to pick out errors in print (out of habit from marking so many scripts)
Hmm..no comments about this. This occupational hazard haven't hit me yet.

7. Likes to point out others' mistakes (out of habit from doing it on a daily basis.)
Yah..When you see me, always put up your hand when you want to speak to me.. Or else..

8. Likes to correct others' speech, behaviour etc (out of habit from doing it on a daily basis at least 40 times.)
No...this is not right. I do it for at least 40, 000 times a day.

9. Likes to talk down to others (physically taller than most; thinks she knows it all- out of habit from doing it daily.)
Yep, the only place that I can talk down to people is at work. And this only applies to my P1 and half of P4 classes. Of course I know it all. Who knows better than me? In the class I mean..=P

10. Likes to say "Do you understand?" (yah, do you understand?!)

Hmm.. okay, the list ends here for tonight, know that it's supposed to be the "top 20 ways of identifying a teacher" so will be back to update the list when I'm free again. By the way, I have one more point to add. Teachers can't stay up late so this is another way of identifying one! They need lots of sleep to handle monkeys everyday.

Monday, April 12, 2004

Sad for you blog.. I'm in a blogging dry spell. Hahaha..let's pray that I have something interesting for you soon.

Oh wait, I just remember something. SMRT had removed all the rubbish bins on the platforms of the MRT stations, and that's really disgusting. God knows for what reason, shouldn't they be trying to make Singapore a cleaner place? I think it's disgusting too, cos I think while waiting for the train is the best time for me to use my facial blotters and I don't fancy throwing a used facial blotter back into my bag. Sigh. What have all the bins gone? Hmm..maybe one the rubbish bins accidentally rolled into the MRT track and caused a near-accident with an approaching train, and they've decided that rubbish bins on platforms are hazards!!

Well, don't think that It was an interesting blog. Hahaha.. maybe I should just go to sleep, gotta to be back in sch early to vet exam papers and to deal with monkeys again. Why is the long weekend over so soon?? I had a great time though, and the good news is that the term is already one-third gone. Hee hee..lazy teacher..

Friday, April 09, 2004

The meaning of life

Okay, the topic sounds dead serious. Don't you dare to start yawning!!

Sigh, I usually love a much lighter topic, but on the trip home just now..was just pondering about it. Perhaps it's true that someone who knows what he/she wants is a much luckier person. At least you live knowing what you are doing, right? I believe that I'm one of those lucky ones, and it's a easy task..I just want to be HAPPY, with a capital H. It sounds easy, but sometimes people doesn't even know what makes them happy.

I guess I value friendship and my personal relationship with my loved ones most. So what if I have the dream career? So what if I have $$ rolling in for me? I think it all doesn't really matter to me. I don't even care if I'm super poor or not, I've learnt to get by with it. I suspect that I'm working so hard just so that I can provide things/comfort for people around me, and maybe doing things that I like will also make them happier in return. I also dunno what I'm lamenting about.. I guess I'm not even lamenting, I'm just voicing out opinions. All of the sudden, just feel that I'm so alone in the world, without friends and family by my side at this time. When I'm working, I can't afford to spend much time to connect with people around me, and this is sad for me. Maybe I should really cherish them more.. and I feel bad about it. I feel helpless, exasperated for not having the means to do so. Why is life like this? Everyone just tend to miss out people important to them only when they're gone.. they'll never know what's really important to them and cherish it..until it's much too late.

I think I've really tried my best.. then like what William Hung said, I should have no regrets. But that doesn't mean that I'm not disappointed though. I'm just tired, I guess. I don't know why too.

Life is such a struggle most of the time, and good times doesn't last. I don't know how to perserve good times and not to let bad times come into my life. I don't even know when are the good times, until I've met with the bad ones later in life. I just want to live every moment happily. It sounds so simple yet how many times can I really achieve it? I can only accept that life is not life without struggles, life is never happier without the bad times.

Yep, just realised that blogging makes me feel happier too.

Good Friday
Hee hee..let's move on to something less solemn. Don't you just miss that 'hee hee..', 'haha' I usually punctuate my blog with? =P Think I'm really glad that today is just Friday and I still have the weekend intact ahead of me. This is really wonderful man! Everyday after work, I just feel like I've finished fighting a battle. It doesn't matter if I win the battle or not, at least I've finished fighting it. So two more days before I return to the battlefield. Went shopping with Ling and Yz after tuition today, and it was great. We spent most of the time eating, drinking and talking lah... and I didnt buy anything from town except some pretty rubber bands. Ha! But it was my ideal way of spending a holiday, just that there was too many people in town.

Guess what? Later in the day when I was on my way home, I stopped by Northpoint to get assessment books for my work and I got myself new clothes! Two new blouses and a new pants. Yeah! Hahahaha..

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

人善被人欺

Is it because I'm too nice? Just because I'm 善良,美丽,大方.. everyone bullies me!!~~

No lah, I'm okay lah, just think that I should be more bitchy a bit, and evil and bit.. Hahahhaa..
That's the end, me dead beat, can't afford to blog much at the middle of a week. Luckily the long weekend is less than 24hours away!! Yeah..

Sunday, April 04, 2004

Okay, I've just linked up Danping's blog as she had decided to let her blog go public. Yeah!! She can finally increase the readership of her blog, especially since it's linked to mine now! Hee hee.. I wonder what makes her change her mind though.. Maybe it's exams coming, she decided to blog even more wacky stuff there and it would be a waste if only me and Aileen reads it everyday. All blogs are public webpage anyway, Hock Sui seems to find it quite weird that I'm putting up thoughts and pictures for the whole world to see. Perhaps there's a little of the 'exhibitionist' streak in me and I don't mind letting the whole world knows what I'm up to. Haiyah, any stranger in their right mind will not be interested to read about my life anyway. Unless, you find the author too pretty to resist? Muahahha.. Hmm, maybe it's weird that I blog about my students and they search Google for their name and end up here. BUT, I don't think they're at that age yet. Imagine, Primary 1s reading my blog and decided not to put up their hands anymore.


Hee hee.. And I'm making a disclaimer here, it's not going to affect my professionalism. Ermm, for example, even though I call my students 'monkeys' I will still try my best to teach them yah? Not as if I'm secretly thinking that they're monkeys so I will treat them like one... HAhahha.. I will be bringing bananas into the class to pacify them! A year back, a medical student was quoted in Streats for what she wrote in her blog, and it caused her a lot of inconvenience as it was deemed that whatever she wrote is politically incorrect for someone in such a noble service. I feel that blogs are comments, inner feelings and whatever is said cannot be brought to the court as if it's something that had been done. Oh yah, it's sure true that nowadays there's only too many examples that the world is changing. Teachers luring their female students, priest getting caught for embazzlement etc.. I think all male teachers (esp secondary school ones) had been reminded a great deal of times recently about how they should be treating their students. It's quite tiring to be nagged at because of some black sheep yah? During the preparatory course for teaching, the lecturer was mentioning that gays are being accepted into the teaching service nowadays, it's just that they had to declare their sexual orientation to the prinicpal and core staff. Yah, I guess that's justifiable... it's not as if people who are homosexuals are desperate raging perverts. Well, I guess at present stage no parents will like their kids to be taught by gays so everything is being kept hush hush..

Yep, had blog quite a lot today. It had been one of the most wonderful weekends. Met up with close friends, with Hock Sui and had long meaningful chats to catch up with important people in my life. I feel so much accomplished and happier. Sigh...but the week is starting again, and I've yet to complete the lesson plan for the week. Lazy teacher.. I can hardly blame my students for being lazy, can I? Hahahha..maybe I'll become the next GTO that kind of funky teacher. I'm Great Teacher Chiang! The only thing to look forward is Good Friday.. thank god for sacrificing to give us a day of holiday each year. I'm really thankful to the Christ now.

Saturday, April 03, 2004

Hey bloggie, I'm back!

Yep, a week of no blogging. I was really busy dealing with work and the monkeys in school. Not the real monkeys, of course, but my notorious students. I love the P1s so much but the P4s are like, they come out from hell. ShEesh, kids are really sucky as they grow up. Damn.. Think I had been complaining to my friends about my work load, my 'ku ku' students and tuitions etc. Until now, I really can't decide if I like the job or hate the job. Guess it's pretty okay, as I'm still quite motivated about it although there were also very frustrating moments. Last night when I met up with Danping, she seems to really miss our relief teaching days. Yeah...I thought I really missed it too, until I started teaching again. Hahaha...

Maybe it's 职业病 or what, think nowadays I really blabber a lot on the phone when in the past I'm not really a phone person. Hahaha..can't help it. According to the book that Danping had given me for my birthday (the one about Mars and Venus in relationships), women just need to talk to destress. That explains why girls like to gossip, come out for 'kopi' and stuff.

Haizz..think my blog is also not very interesting nowadays. Hee hee.. my lessons doesn't seem very engaging also. Maybe I'm just not a good story teller. Hmm.. I'll be back again. Wonderful weekend ahead..=)