我不难过


作词：杨明学　作曲：李�戚�

又站在你家的门口　我们重复沉默　这样子单方面的守候　还能多久
终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔　虽然你还握着我的手　但我已不在你心中

我真的懂　你不是喜新厌旧　是我没有　陪在你身边　当你寂寞时候
别再看着我　说着你爱过　别太伤痛　我不难过　这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流　我也不懂

就让我走　让我开始享受自由　回忆很多　你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱　你比谁都懂　虽然寂寞　这会是我　最后的宽容

抱紧我　再抱紧我　这一份感动　请你让我留在胸口
别在说是你的错　爱到了尽头　是非对错　就让它随风
忘了所有　过得比你快活

我真的懂　你不是喜新厌旧　是我没有　陪在你身边　当你寂寞时候
别再看着我　说着你爱过　别太伤痛　我不难过　这不算什么

只是为什么眼泪会流　我也不懂

不要再说　或许这是最好结果　现在分手　总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手　离开你左右　我向前走　这会是我　真正的解脱

Back here to read my blog which was done in a hurry at the school comp lab this afternoon as I was rushing off for tuition. Received an sms from Danping regarding the blog about my poor 'Xiaoxing', just went over to her blog page and WOW! she actually blogged for every single day this week. That loser...hahaa, must be damned bored as I'm having exams this week and Giam is having her eyes glued to the TV for good. (By the way, as I'm blogging this, Andy just msg me over icq asking about my exams. And it's a wrong move on his part cos I'm only left with one paper! hahahaha)

[ andy ]: how's exams?

Akane
=): hee hee..it's time for me to make a grand annoucement!!

Akane
=): only left with one paper!!
how about you?? =)
[ andy ]: oohhh..
around there also la..
1+6

Akane
=): ohh..how wonderful...that should be over soon..

Akane
=): just not as soon as me loh..
[ andy ]: ya...
heh, at least i finish earlier than LUA HOCK SUI lor!!!!!!!!
muahahhaha..

wah..he best loh...come out with this tactic..
Anyway, back to the loser part, come to think of it, at least Danping only started blogging and she's only so keen about her blog ever since she got the boring attachment at this company. As for me..well, I've blogged for the past one and half years, been surfing net nightly for the past 5 years. Real Loser huh? wahhahahah...okay, time to sleep!

Exams updates
I have declared today as a No-Studying day as I've just cleared 3 papers this week and right now, my next and last paper is next Sat. Felt like I've been put into a washing machine and tumbled up, down, left and right. I slept into 11am this morning and felt that it's a bliss!

Demise of my Laptop
My laptop 'Xiaoxing' had clashed on wed night, usually I would be devastated and felt so lost without being able to go online at night. But I was too busy preparing for exams to bother about it then and there, Sis was real upset as her 500 photos taken from "all over the world" was uploaded to my laptop and there isn't any backup copies of it. I'm luckier, there's no file inside which I'm unwilling to lose. This morning, despite its a 'No-studying' day, I had came to school just to service my XiaoXing. But the woman at the service place said that the motherboard had burnt due to prolonged usage and need to wait for another 1.5 mths for the new parts to arrive. My jaw dropped. 1.5mths!! And while my exams are almost over and I'm unemployed at the moment, I can't even enjoy my nightly entertainment. Sigh. Xiaoxing.. Rest In Peace..

Blogging
I wasn't exactly a blog fanatic but a few years ago..I think it was in 2001 before I started my previous blog, I was reading Streats and saw an article of a NUS girl being interviewed about blogging. http://drsheep.com/
I thought that it's really an interesting idea but didn't manage to remember her blog address so wasn't able to take a look, surfing around Funkygrad a few days later brought me to blogger as some of the forummers were talking about blogging too. Today went to Funkygrad as usual and saw the previous post being digged out from the history folder as the poor girl who was interviewed by Streats got unduly quoted in an article in Streats recently regarding SARs and she's quoted from an entry on her blog page. I think the blogging was supposed to be a highly personally event and she was making comments which are not meant to be published. But she was, and the papers even put down her full name. Think this incident left a bad impact on the author, as she was portrayed as a selfish, inconsiderate student of NUS in the papers just because of the comments made on her blog page. Hmph..disgusting..

刚下了一场雨... 啊! 好爽啊! 把围绕在我身边的一阵阵沉闷给洗掉了... 团团的闷气包围着我, 使我感到昏昏欲睡, 真不想读下去, 却又不得不这么做. 唉, 唉...我不想再呆在这里了.. 可是看这本厚厚的书只解决了这么一点.. 真是心灰意冷..
好了好了..感觉到清新的空气吹来, 就让我好好利用吧... 加油, 加油..

This is not my regular blogging hour but quite sick of revision..so here I am.. =P Yep, it's a sunday and I'm in school trying to pia for my papers on Tuesday. Right now, still low stress level! Argghhh..I think I need to kill myself before the papers kill me. Sigh..

Giam
That strange woman, I think her TV fever is getting even worse than usual. Last time she was watching prime time shows but now even those in the afternoon and wee hours she's also catching it without fail. She used to mention that she's using it to relieve her stress but now it seems that it's also a cause of her stress. I'm quite amused/bewildered, as TV is already not part of my life, at least it's not an essential item to me. But my mum is the same..she'll scold us if she forgot to switch the VCR to timer mode and missed the shows for a day. Yesterday Giam msged me suggesting to meet up in the evening after her tuition, and she said will msg me around 6 plus. So i left school and anticipating that she will tell me where to meet around 6, but she say she's going home to watch tv and also just woke up (I suspect from her student's place). I had a swim instead as I've brought my swim gear out, there were less than 10 pple in the pool! This morning she woke me up at 8.13am in the middle of a cosy sleep with a downpour outside, asking me if she should go to her school or come NUS. I adviced her to go her own sch as she said that it's more constructive...then went back to my sweet dreams. At 11am, she msged me saying that it's quite unproductive, might be coming NUS later in the day. At 12 plus, she msged me saying that the unproductiveness had encouraged her to go home and catch a 1pm (!!) show, asking me to force her to study later on. But now at the end of the day, she just changed her plans to go home, have home cooked dinner and slack again.. hahhahahhaha..weirdo!

Yep, this week missed the weekly blogging slot on Monday as I was busy revising for my exams. =P Think everyone out there must be missing me and wondering how I'm doing..so here I am!! =) Just went to Danping's blog page and then.. it's so 'informative' and eventful, feel pale as a comparison but this can also be explainable by the fact that 1) she's have more free time on hand to blog 2) she's a even bigger slacker than me, or 3) she's even more sian than me, thus spending all her time blogging..hahhahaa. Anyway, the past 3 days had been spent in school studying, and now my studying companion had become Hock Sui. This semester Serene only have one paper left by now, Aileen is hibernating at home and Danping is at IA. So luckily yo..still got him around, but today he went off early to meet his project mates for dinner, so here I am rushing to the comp lab immediately!! hee hee.. my first paper is just tmr, but think I really need a 'well-deserved break'..

Yoooohoooooo!!! I've finished my very last project in my NUS life (provided I don't repeat the modules).. and also had the last lesson and the last presentation today -11.04.2003. Not much feelings, no nostalgic feelings..maybe a few months down the road I will miss my life in school. Oh well, I dunno... don't care for the time being. 学生生涯划上休止符. My dreams is to go back to school again one day, maybe a few years, maybe five years, or many many years later. Well, now that projects are all finally done, I'm not sure if the worse is over yet. Not quite, I guess. Next week is already my first week of studying for my exams, then everything will be over almost 3 weeks later. And that's really the end. Oh no, it should be the start.. of unemployment. =P

Yeah..it's the time of the week again, welcome back to my weekly telecast about the interesting life of the blogger here. I'm still at the forum, in school, and had been here for the past 6 hours. Can't really say that i'm doing very constructive things for the past hours, but at least I've gotten things done and forced myself to be in school, around people who are mugging to keep the stress level high. Been to YIH study room just now, and it's really a terrible place.. the air-con was actually off and they had placed a few pathetic fans there to keep the room ventilated. It's real pathetic, the joy of studying there is gone as it's quite uncomfortable. Instead of hearing the humming of the air-con and pages being turned, there's only birds chirping outside the windows as not many students are there despite it being opened 24 hours. Well, at least we don't have to worry about the epidermic there anymore, first it's so 'well-ventilated' and second, there's not many students mugging there as usual. (Some muggers had just arrived, think they're going to stay overnight in school. Disgusting! ) Weather had been quite humid these days, and feeling quite sticky now actually, feel like going home and bathe rightaway. Haiz..think will be leaving soon... .

hmm..something strange happened to my blog today, and the page is not loading up properly..

Anyway, it's finally Friday and I'm soooooooooo HAPPY that this hellish week is finally over...=P Had nice dinner with Giam and Wu last night after I've finally submitted my Lit paper yesterday. Was feeling real great that I don't have to go home and rush my work anymore, but yesterday was apprehensive about it as the extension Dr Yeo granted for me was on Wednesday and I've only managed to complete it on Wed night. But when I went to give her the paper after lecture, she only said with a smile "It's okay.." Phew! Had been imagining her interrogating me why I handed it up so late as the rest had already submitted it on Monday, and I've thought of slipping it into her pigeon hole instead of facing her personally. But I've decided that that'll be worse and I should do some atonement for my mistake instead, face up to it man!!~! Anyway, finally it's left with 3 projects and it's all group work now so it's not going to be as tough as what I've been through this week, been staring at the comp to generate strings of words for days, so I'm quite sick of it already.

Forgot to mention that last week, we celebrated Giam's birthday with the club during the BBQ. And Hock Sui and I presented her with a well-chosen gift- a new wallet, was quite glad that she really liked it and she's using it now.

Hi.. welcome to hell week. Oh yah, and it's April's Fool but I'm not in the mood for any jokes right now. Today is just the end of my first day of hell week, I wasn't really suffering from Monday blues at the start of the day, as I think I really have very low stress level to begin with. But I went to school at 10am and went off from forum with a drained brain at 10.30pm. Right now, I just had my dinner, bathed and back to the computer again. *groan* Before I go back to work in a few minutes, just remembered that it's Monday and I'm supposed to blog..Heh, it's still the one thing that's keeping my spirits up at the end of the day too.


Deadlines
I have five deadlines from tmr till next Saturday for all my five modules. Since I've blogged about being overwhelmed until now, I'm still as overwhelmed, at moments at least. So far only cleared one presentation last week and feedback was that it's an excellant job though preparation was quite last minute( oh, think nobody knows about this part. Had two deadlines extended due to some reasons, one due to 'technical problems' and the other I've requested for it from my lit tutor, and luckily for me, it was granted! =) I still can't believe that I was still out at sea sailing the whole day yesterday..唉 真是不知死活. Sigh..obviously things are not that smooth sailing now


One of the deadline granted was on last tuesday, was quite shocked/amazed but I was lucky too!

Dear Yurong,

The paper was sent to you last Tuesday. Here is a copy of the e-mail
sent along with the paper to be critiqued. Since you did not receive
the paper I will grant you an extension until next Tuesday, 1 April.

Best regards,

George Bishop



-----Original Message-----
From: ^^ Rong^^ [mailto:chococraze@hotmail.com]
Sent: Monday, March 24, 2003 7:59 PM
To: Bishop, George D
Subject: Re: Combined leader and critique roster



Dear Dr Bishop,

Hi. As indicated in the roster sent to us at the beginning of the
year, I
am supposed to do the critique paper for the topic 'Treatment
Compliance'.
The topic was done in Week 8 but till today, I had not received the
paper to
do the critique, therefore I wish to find out from you if I'm missing
out on
anything or if the paper had been sent to me. Thank you for your
attention
in reading this mail.

Best regards,
Chiang Yurong

Really lucky that I remembered that I'm supposed to have another assignment these few weeks and emailed him just in time, I guess he may also be suspecting that I've gotten the first mail (hopefully he's not too suspicious!) but haven't done my work so pretend that I haven't got it. But the fact is that I didn't get it, and luckily he's kind enough to grant me a week's grace.


Right after I've received that mail, I was really on a tied schedule with my lit assignment which is supposedly due today, but I remembered that we could request for an extension of deadline if it's well beforehand and with valid reasons. And luckily I also did well for the Citizen Kane presentation last Friday, so my lit tutor had a relatively good impression of me.



Hi
Yes, Wednesday is fine.

Take care,
Dr Yeo


Dr Yeo Wei Wei
Assistant Professor
Department of English Language and Literature



-----Original Message-----
From: Chiang Yurong
Sent: Wednesday, March 26, 2003 2:34 AM
To: Yeo Wei Wei
Subject: Request for an extension of deadline


Dear Dr Yeo,

I am your student from DW4 (Friday 1300-1400), I'm very sorry to
inform you that I may need an extension of deadline for Assignment 2 due
to the following reason: I had just received another assignment from
another module PL3212Y today, and I'm required to do a 5 page critique
to be handed up by next Tuesday. I am supposed to have this assignment
done last week but due to some problems, only received the assignment
via e-mail today and my lecturer had kindly agreed to extent the
deadline till next Tuesday (1st April). Kindly refer to the
correspondance between me and my lecturer Dr George Bishop in the email
below. As there is already an extension of deadline granted by him, I
certainly hope to finish this assignment by the date given, thus may
have problem completing my EN1101E assignment at the same time. Another
reason for my request is that my presentation slot for EN1101E -Citizen
Kane is coming up during tutorial this Friday, so I need more time to
prepare for the presentation as well.

Nevertheless, I will still try to get the assignment done and handed
up on next Monday in the event that the extension is not granted,
however I will be glad if you can inform me of your decision. Thank you
for your attention regarding this matter.

Best Regards,
Yurong

Right now I'm almost done with the 5 page critique due tomorrow but haven't start with my lit assignment yet..argghhh

SARS
Think after I've posted about death a few weeks ago, my world is now filled with morbidity, not because I'm still pondering about the topic but war had broken out at Iraq and now, Singapore in danger of a weird epidermic- Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrom. Things had became so bad that you can start up a conversation with a stranger talking about it on the street, and now everywhere it's really 人心惶惶. I dunno which is worse, wars or SARs? Hiak..it even rhyme just by looking at the two words, and I think the epidermic is worse in my opinion as it's the first time I've heard of MOE closing down schools, and it's nearer to home too. The Iraqis are snatching gas masks to prevent chemical poisoning, while we are snatching face masks to prevent a virus spreading. But at the moment, we still got lessons and deadlines, and ultimately, deadlines are still the worst for me! I still have to put aside fear of epidermic, and go to the crowded NUS library to mug at the risk of getting the disease.


Despite all this, I'm still quite happy these few days, can't help it..Maybe it's true that the most important thing on Earth is to love and be loved. Yucks..wahahhahhaa, even I can't stand myself saying all these..