Beware, this is a rant blog.

If boredom can kill, I think I would be dead by now. Can't believe me, I've practically locked myself inside the house for the whole weekend. I'm in the hermit mood, don't feel like playing with anyone. "Huh, you mad? Always online somemore.." Sigh..yep, think I am. Don't even feel like blogging... going out soon.

Only achievement today is that I've baked brownies.. Yep, brownies.

Turn Left, turn right

Hmm, the show is finally going to come out on 10th Sept. This afternoon I heard the main theme song by Sephanie Sun on TV and it's quite a nice one too. Quite sometime ago, Danping and I were at the popular bookstore and they had the whole range of Jimmy's books. It quite collectible, and my dream is to get the whole range of his books, just like my Harry Porter series. Told Danping that I had seen the flash on a website before, but I lost the link to the flash so couldn't send to her then. But I've found the link to Jimmy's website and can view the synopsis of the books and some other stuff. ( http://www.jimmyspa.com) Had been waiting for the movie as I had seen the posters around for a long time, think it's going to be a nice one.

Everyday, we meet people by chances. Whether we get to make friends depend on chances and fate, and sometimes its just a matter of choices to know them better. You'll never know which of these are your acquaintances, or they may become your good friends and even someone you can't live without in future.

遇见 (电影"向左走向右走"第一主打)

听见 冬天的离开 我在某年某月 醒过来
我想 我等 我期待 未来却不能因此安排
阴天 傍晚 车窗外 未来有一个人在等待
向左 向右 向前看 爱要拐几个弯才来
我遇见谁 会有怎样的对白 我等的人 他在多远的未来
我听见风 来自地铁和人海 我排着队 拿着爱的号码牌
我往前飞 飞过一片时间海 我们也常在爱情里受伤害
我看着路 梦的入口有点窄 我遇见你是最美的意外
终有一天 我的谜底会解开

by 孙燕姿

<<几米>>
Jimmy's stories are quite philosophical, I'm real lucky today as I went to the library and finally managed to find his books there. Borrowed 3 of his books at a go, as I had been looking out for them for a long time. It's something like the story of 'Little Prince' and I must say that he have very good imagination and talent. Maybe I can't draw, that's why appreciate it even more. There's more pictures than words in his books but it tells a lot about life. Was reading one of them on my way home, it's call 'Sounds of Colours' and it's about a blind little girl experiencing life from her rides on the MRT. My interpretations of her MRT rides are the passages of life, and different stops are different experiences in life. These are my favourite lines:-

有时候, 我觉得已走到世界的尽头.
不断地坐错车, 并一再下错车.
常常不知道自己在哪里? 要去什么地方?
...
其实, 我哪里都不想去.

Actually his stories are mostly quite sad and 灰暗. And the irony is that the sad parts are the most colourful parts in the books. I would say that he's a cynic just like me, from the way the stories are written, maybe that's why I appreciate the stories a lot. But, being cynical is not the same as being pessimistic, it's just the ironies of life that makes it so special.

This morning I woke up feeling very bored even though the weekend is approaching. I was lamenting to Aileen that life is so meaningless, those who are working or studying had also been complaining to me about their woes. But ironically, I don't feel much better than them. Maybe it's the marathon tuitions I'm gong to have tomorrow that's making me demoralised, or it's just the uneventfulness of things. I just dread it. I even suspect that I may be undergoing the 'quarter-life crisis' now.. But ermm.. I hate to think about that, I haven't even started working and I still got another half a year before I'm 23.

Hee.. anyway, felt so much better after visiting the library in the evening. By the way, this is my third time to the library this week, I think it's the best place ever invented other than my bed. I must a real nerd. A pretty nerd anyway. =) Specially chose to go home around 8pm so that I can catch music diary on my way back, and I heard a very lovely story. Quite lucky today.

Chow chow and Dum dum
Introduce my friends to you..



This is Chow chow, a honey coloured FF bear. It speaks English and it's quite smart. It is now peering curiosity at grass monster and wondering if it should make friends with it. Chow chow just moved out of NTU last week, and now it is living with Mommy. Chow chow's master is in US, intially it was rather sad to be left behind, but now it had settled down and living quite happily. In the day time, it sits in the living room to watch TV. And night time, it sleeps with Mommy. It's never lonely.


And this is Dum dum, it's just a week old but growing lots of grasses already. It bathes every morning.

The weather here been pretty cool since last Saturday. It was real hot when I was having kayaking for the first part of the afternoon, then the last activity cycle was affected by thunderstorm, lightning and huge waves.

Driving
Had been getting downpours for a few days now, and during my driving lesson yesterday. First time I switched on the demister, wiper and headlights in the car. *proud* hee hee.. But it was exciting since visibility was low, a bit scary too. I had encountered four instructors so far, and my driving experiences was never as bad as my sis described. Hahaha..think it's the reciprocity effect at work. My conclusion is that the older and uglier instructors are the more patient ones. Anyway, all of them were quite patient with me although I'm quite dumb, or maybe their impatience didn't have any effect on me. Maybe they just didn't realise, if I know how to drive very well already, wouldn't need to spend such a great sum of money on it right?

Yesterday I was assigned this good looking guy for the 2nd time , first time I saw him was really excited as finally I got somebody who's decent looking. But right after that previous session which was more than a mth ago, I really condemned him as he was the only one who failed me in a lesson. I think I still prefer the old and uglies. My eyes were glued to the road the whole time anyway, so it doesn't matter whether it's Tom Cruise or Moses Lim sitting next to me for that 100 minutes. This driving instructor resembled Malcolm, a FI I had met in HQ and he even speaks like him. He's something like a male version of a bimbo, a female who's pretty but brainless. I'm a bit being mean, as he wasn't that disgustingly brainless actually, and I think he was trying to keep himself awake in the cool weather by chatting brainlessly about my past time, reasons why I'm so tanned, and why I don't look like my resume photo. Sigh, I don't mind entertaining young teens but somehow a grown man in his twenties talking like that is a bit 'funnie'. I can't stand talkative guys in the first place, and I don't really like to discuss about my life stories with such acquaintances. Just wondering why they have this term 'bimbo' for ladies but not the guys. Nevermind, I'll just address him as an idiot. And I noticed that most good looking guys I know are brainless, maybe I'm being biased and generalising but there's very very few exceptions. Even Tom Cruise is quite brainless, what's so good about Penelope Cruz? God is really fair in this sense. It's either these good looking guys are brainless, or they are born with very low EQ. But I have to admit that guys are better drivers in a sense, and I'm going to be a lousy driver even if I have a license in future.

I'm in a cynical mood tonight..haha..

Him and her?
Two friends of mine just broke up recently..with each other. I not really very close to either of them, but the girl in question is a close friend of my close friend. Hmm.. so somehow quite close. I think naturally girls will side with the girls, unless for exceptional cases. As it is, only the people involved will really know what happened, but frankly, it's quite true that "长痛不如短痛" and people should be living to enjoy life and be happy right? So isn't it unwise to stay with someone that will hurt you and make you sad, regardless of whether it's the right person or not. I guess if someone really likes you, he/she will try their best to make you be happy no matter what. Yep, I'm quite cynical again. Hee hee, I even noticed that in 音乐日记, or Aunt Agony that kind of thing, they'll encourage you to give up, instead of holding on. (Speaking of which, I haven't been catching music diary for quite a long time..) Heh heh, but I also know that, it's possible to stay away from arguements, quarrels, fights and unhappiness. Maybe it's the temperament, or it's the chemistry, but somehow, I know.

Yurong is back after a week of no blogging.. lots of things had happened as usual..so a long long post.. =)

He's gone
My boy boy flew to US for six weeks last Friday. Had been anticipating it for so long, so it's also good that he's finally gone.. so that he'll come back sooner! =) The best part of the whole thing was the surprise Wu and Giam gave us. I must admit that out of all the surprises that Serene had planned in the past, this is one of the best. But I think Wu who was dragged into her 'surprise' scheming didn't enjoy it a bit..hahhaa.. I had taken a part in it before and I was wondering and cursing the whole time why she could do such a dumb thing. But it was good to be at the receiving end, really appreciated it for once. Last year, they came to fetch me at the airport when I was back from Thailand, and hid behind some bushes or flower pots so I couldn't spot them when I collect my barang at the belt. So I took my own sweet time at the DFS and was getting out of the arrival hall before they appeared. Was really surprised.

Anyway, this time they paid a higher price as both of them actually stayed over at the airport to send Hock Sui off. Was really convinced that Miss Giam wouldn't appear (although she's a really warm hearted creature ) when she msg me to apologise the previous night, as she had a busy time with briefing for the Pri 5 camp before that. So i didn't suspect that it might be Giam surprise scheme again. Haha.. poor Danping was dragged in to spend the night at the cold airport with her, and both of them had to go to school after that. But was glad that I don't have to take a cab back alone, and we went for breakfast before we slowly take the bus to town and they went to school. Giam also sent a nice msg to me, think they were really there to give me moral support, and accompany me back. Also a good thing as I saved money from taking cab back and he could be more 放心 when he left. Initally thought that I would be rather sad, but just felt quite excited once we reached the airport very early that morning. I felt so much like going somewhere on the plane too! Anyway, promised to give Wu and Giam a treat next time..hee hee..

Hmm, still have the strange feeling that something is missing, esp after I woke up later that day. But guess will get used to it and Yurong's life will get back on track soon. Had been feeling rather low and grumpy towards the later part of the previous week, 43 more days to go only! Heee..

ATC
Slept for 5.5 hours after reaching home, stayed up the whole night with Hock Sui and was damn tired. But had to drag myself up to pack for ATC, go for tuition, then make my way to Changi. Had totally forgotten that I'm supposed to be at camp, and left my booties and jungle hat at club. Was panicking when I was packing my stuff in a rush. Felt so much like blogging but gave up the idea as I didn't even have the time to bathe. Was deciding if I should make a trip to the club when I saw the black cap that was given free to us for our help at the 'Charity swim event'. Although I'm not a 'cap' person, I'm certainly glad to find that alternative. The next trickier issue is the booties as both pair of my wet shoes are at club. Then miraculously, I spotted a pair of 'Go Sport' blue booties lying on top of my cupboard. Tried them on and Lo and behold!!, they fitted just nice and were quite new somemore. I really couldn't believe how lucky I was and until now I racked my brains a hundred times but still can't figure out when did I ever borrow/steal that pair of booties home. Nevertheless, I was damn lucky.

First night arrived at camp, I was very bored. I can't imagine how I could run around the whole place and conduct ATC enthusiatically previously. But the last time I've been to Area camp is already 2 years back, and it was still at the mini old place. Think it was last year or the year before when Danping went to the last NYGH atc with her best friend, but I was busy. Really felt a generation gap with the CIs there now, as most of them from Area 15 are brand new (from the last few batches and thus 4 or 5 years younger than me) and I didn't feel like making friends that night. Couldn't believe that I went to the bunk and fell asleep like the other officers. One good thing about the new campsite is the bunks and you can always hide inside and slack without telling the whole world. Was glad to see Tiancai there, and he welcomed me with food and drink although he was complaining about my area the whole time. The next day was really surprised and happy to see Casey at the campsite too, but it was already at the end of the day and I was about the leave the place. Had 6 rotations of kayaking activities in 9 hours, I felt like a radio and was really tired repeating the same old things to the cadets.


The wait
Not particulary waiting for phone calls, but thought that he might try to contact me once he settled down at US. Figured out that he was still flying when I'm already in camp for ATC, but had the phone with me the whole time. The next day have to leave my phone in the bunk when kayaking and almost forgot all about it till half of the lunch break had finished. There was a few missed calls and 2 were w/o numbers, so it might be from overseas. Really wanted to kick myself as the last one was only 2 minutes before I checked on my phone..sigh. Had my phone with me till I needed to go into the water but no more calls came in. Had a hunch that it must be phone calls from US. Rushed to check on my phone again when the next activity cycle is over at 3pm and there were two more missed calls w/o numbers, at 12 plus and 1 plus.. Sigh, really no fate, that was what my friend tried to "console" me. =P After that, I figured out that it's already wee hours at US side, so no more calls and I got out of camp that evening. Slept all the way from one end of 969 to the other end, was too tired to alight from the bus along the way. I got home and was already in bed when the phone rang. Finally man, was so glad to hear from him from the other side of the phone. Hahaha..although reception wasn't very good and had to call back a few times but I was happy, at least he survived the long plane ride and also haven't forgot all about me. =) The time where he's now is around 15 hours slower, so it's quite strange when speaking in different time zones, it was only 6.30am of Sat morning for him when he called. Oh yeah..got a call from him again this afternoon, happy yo..=)

Dum dum
Dum dum is a grass monster that Hock Sui bought for me last Friday. It had started to sprout grasses today. Hmm..maybe will show you how it looks like later on, because now there's little bits of hair coming out and it's still a bit ugly..hee hee.. Yesterday came back from ATC and remembered that I was late in letting it drink water, so soaked it in the kitchen.. but I dozed off soon after that. Think Mum saw it swimming around in the tub when she came back and fished it out for me. I guess the swim did it some good as grasses started to come out today. =) Hopefully it's not going to die too soon!

你听得到


词：曾郁婷 曲：JAY

有谁能比我知道 你的温柔像羽毛
秘密躺在我怀抱 只有你能听得到
还有没有人知道 你的微笑像拥抱
多想藏着你的好 只有我看得到
站在屋顶只对风说 不想被左右
本来讨厌下雨的天空 直到听见有人说爱我
坐在电影院的二楼 看人群走过
怎么那一天的我们 都默默的微笑很久
我想我是太过依赖 在挂电话的刚才
坚持学单纯的小孩 静静看守这份爱
知道不能太依赖 怕你会把我宠坏
你的香味一直徘徊 我舍不得离开


Yeah..chinese words are back after blogger changed its templete, all thanks to Xien! Hee hee.. this song is my favourite in Jay's new 叶惠美. 你听得到.. 你听得到..

Time
Sigh.. It's really a commodity that we put up a fight to find, grapple to gain, struggle to control and fail to manage. Sad isn't it? Sometimes we even wish that time will pass slowly (during good times) or fly past in our lives (when bored? exam period?) I dunno, but I hope that I'm making good use of my time while I'm still young. But I guess, one good thing about time is that it's the only thing in this world that's really fair, and everyone can only have just that 24 hours. If its other things like wealth, beauty, intelligence, or just pure luck...then it's a different story. Life is fair.. god is fair..

Anyway, I'm going Sentosa this sat! Hee..it's really lucky lately. Just been to Night Safari and Zoo, and now can go Sentosa to play... Yeah! I'm really glad that after so many months, finally we have the chance to spend a memorable day celebrating our monthly anniversary. Previously was just busy with our exams, studies, convocation etc.. and to think that next mth we won't be able to meet up at all, it's still quite a good deal yah? hahaha.. =)

Time is really a commodity that's hard to come by..