Sometimes, I really don't know what I'm doing.. I'm doing nothing all day but sleeping and rotting away, waiting for night time to come. But anyway, thanks for the encouragement Ling! Did I sound depressed/sad the previous previous post? Nah.. actually I think even if the sky is falling down, I'm not affected anymore. I don't know where my anxiety has gone to. Maybe there's still other issues on my mind.

Hmm.. let's move on to a lighter topic.. Wondering if I write a testimonial for myself on friendster, how would it be like? Obviously I'm a humble and modest little creature, so would point out more of my own flaws (which is not that many anyway) rather than singing my own praises like what everyone else had been doing..hahahhaha..

Yurong is a really great friend, she's loyal to her closest buddies and will always be there for them. But she's a big PROCRASTINATOR... likes to throw things to the back of her head and only get started when it's absolutely necessary. Thus, she's too lazy to call her friends or organise gatherings. BUT..she'll still be there for everyone after a long time. She's quite shy when meeting new people, but warm up to them easily. She has this weird habit of avoiding making phone calls to anyone, it's a psychological disorder diagnosed years ago, and she's also anti-social. If she sees any acquaintances whom she hardly knows on the street, she avoids them like plague and tries to hide away to avoid the awkwardness of making small talks. Now, isn't that anti-socialness? She's loves being with a big group of people, but at moments during a great party, she'll turn into a hermit and hide in a corner, mellowing down very fast. But other than all these, she's alright and appears to be quite normal. Her mental age is 2 years younger than her realistic age, so pardon her if she appears quite naive and out of the world..she's still living at 20 years old of age. Yurong has lots of dreams, but does not think that working is necessary although that's what she's supposed to do. At this moment, she's at a juncture of her life where she doesn't know where to start, continue and end. But give her some time, she doesn't like to plan too much ahead of her in life and just take things easy as they come. =) That's a double edged sword as some people may find her too laid back to achieve any success while others will admire her simplicity in life. She's just a harmless and unthreatening human being.

Hee hee.. I'm done.

Oh yah, my blog actually is actually one year old yesterday. Woah..been through a lot this year. Happy birthday Blog! =)

Friendster
Okay, think everyone should know what it is and what it does. Anyone who do not know what is friendster..erm..I guess shouldn't be living in this world at all. (Go bang your head on the wall!!) I have accumulated 82 friends presently and connected to 255, 000 others.. It's quite amazing at first, and I spent my days surfing to people's pages, adding people I know, then 'kay-pohing' about how my secondary school friends, JC friends and other people whom I know are doing. Maybe I was too bored, but went back to surf around for days, and eventually all the friends just came 'rolling' in.. now they mostly found me instead of me finding them. I feel that everyone is more interested in adding friends then the friends they had added. At first, Hock Sui was really against me spending my time there, saying its boh liao, lame etc.. maybe he's just jealous. =P But nowadays he's the one surfing around everyday!! Sigh.. who's the lamer?

Yeah..long time no blog. Yesterday went blog surfing and discover this HP character test from Xien's page, so just went to take the test for interest sake. I like the results, but I seriously don't think I can intimidate anyone with my confidence. =P But the part about me being a loyal friend is true.. hee hee.. Also went to Danping's blog and I think if I'm not wrong, she took down her blog page and started one somewhere else, becos of the disclosed blog addie. But guess I'm too lazy to shift as I'm too comfortable settled down here. Don't care.. =P I wondered if she started any new blog page at all, didn't get a new addie from her anyway.

Haven't blog once since Hock Sui came back, hmmm.. should say that we spent quality time catching up before he's gone again for his training next week. Really felt so happy the past two weeks to make up for lost time since he started TIP. But I guess he's right, it's about time I should do some serious thinking about what I want to do to make myself happy next. Frankly in the past one mth or so I just kept telling myself that I will take things as it come and was really spending my life just waiting for him to be free, so that we can spend some time together. Just thinking/discussing of what I should do next made me quite defensive and sort of depressed too. Maybe that's why I didn't want to face it in the first place. I just feel quite useless to be doing nothing concrete and have no goals/motivation in life at the moment. But life shouldn't be like that for me and it's time to do some soul-searching, I had seriously thought about it anyway, luckily I guess I'm not too desperate or depressed yet (or I may just sink into endless whining and complaining). And at least that gives me some leeway to decide properly, which is a good thing. Hmm, all of a sudden it's quite ironic as I suddenly don't feel like doing any kayaking or NPCC stuff anymore; even though it's all those stuff that's keeping me happy all the time. Suddenly, I just want to be somewhere like where Wendy is and doing something altogether different. I really not too sure what to do to keep myself happy, maybe I'll be glad just to land myself a 9-5 job; maybe I just want to learn something new for a change. I don't want to go Ramunia, I dont want to go IPC all of a sudden. Are these hindering me to start something new?? The soul searching shall continue..

Which HP Kid Are You?

The door and the specs

Guess you wouldn't know this. A newly fixed and painted door which is equipped with a new lock cost $285. It's really fast.. after reading through the adverts and calling up the person, the guy will come within hours and show you the brochures to look for the design you like. Next day, the door is fixed within half an hour by the headman, leaving lots of wood shavings on the floor. And later on, another person will come and paint the door for you. Okay, so now I have the newest and prettiest door in the house..duh.. Ever since we've moved in, it's quite awkwardly fixed to the room so nobody can close the door properly (except for me), but now it's working beautifully. And of course it looks like it haven't been changed, except for the lock. We chose back the exact same colour and design so that it will look too odd and outstanding from the rest of the rooms in the house. Of course, my parents paid for all these..heh heh...

On Monday, I realised that I've left my specs in OBS. Haiz.. must be that Miss Giam, she was sitting on my bed in the middle of the night, whining and refusing to go back to sleep. End up, I exchanged bed with her and in all that hoo-hah in the middle of the night, I forgot where I left my specs in the morning and came back without it. Not that I use it very often, but now I can't change out of my contact lenses until the very very last moment before I want to get into bed. Sometimes it's really uncomfortable, think I forgot to change my monthly disposable for a long time arleady. I'm practically blind without visual aids. Sigh.. Mum was nagging at me for that day but she promised to get a new pair for me soon.